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Friday, February 19
Serial: Dil Mil Gaye (Dill Mill Gayye)
' THE STORY OF A PRINCE AND A PRINCESS'
Armaan bed per soya hua hai.......dheere-dheere uski aankhe khulti hai.....use lagta hai koi use dekhkar muskura raha hai.........koun hai........sayad riddhima........wah bhi muskurane ki kosis karta hai........but dard se uska sara sarir toota ja raha hai................kya hua tha!.....sayad bike race..........per uski to riddhima ke sath sagai thi!............suddenly he remembered everything and chilla uthta hai..........'riddhima.......basket'.............
Atul aaj bahoot baichen hai.jab se wo hadsa hua hai,sabki jaise jindagi hi badal gayi hai.Dr.Sashank ne to yahan aana hi chodr diya hai.Anjali to apna sara wakt MOTHER NURSING HOME me hi gujarti hai,mukan aati bhi to ek kathpootli ki tarah.sirf Dr.Kirti aur Abhi-nikki ne ish sanjibani ko sambhal rakha hai.sab dare hue aur khamosh se rahte hain.
achanak phone baj uthta hai...Anjali ki aawaj hai.....'Atul,Arman ko hosh aa gaya hai.per wah pagalon ki tarah Ridhz. ka nam lekar chilla raha hai....koi use sambhal nahi pa raha hai....ab kya hoga atul...mujhe bahoot dar lag raha hai.......'
Atul: 'toom ghabrao mat anjali, mai Arman ke pass ja raha hoon'
Anjali : 'nahi Atul,toom mat jao .toom to jhuth bhi nahi bol sakte aur abhi mujhe tumhari jaroorat hai,toom yahan aa jao.'
Atul : 'tum thik kahti ho anjali, mai Rahul ko wahan bhej deta hoon'.
Atul rahul ko mobile per try karta hai....tabhi use muskan ki awaz sunai deti hai...
Muskan : 'dekh Rahul,mujhe tung mat kiya ker'.
Rahul :' to tu kiya jo ji me aaye karegi?'
Muskan : 'ha,karungi,tujhse to poochke nahi karungi na.tu wapus aaya hi keun? tu mujhe apne doston ke sath chor de.'
Rahul : 'mai bhi apne dost ke liye hi aaya hoon.'
Atul :' guys,koi mujhe bhi batayega ki kya ho raha hai?'
Rahul :' ish pagal ne do din se khana nahi khaya hai.Arman-Riddhima ke liye mannat magi hai..'
atul : 'sayad ishka hi natija hai ki Arman ko hosh aa gaya hai.'.
Rahul-Muskan (ek sath) : 'kya !arman ko hosh aa gaya.'
Atul : 'aur use koi sambhal nahi pa raha hai.'
Muskan : 'mai chali jati hoon.'
Rahul : tu kya karegi? tu gurudwara ja,tu wahi thik hai. mai ush pagal ke pass jata hoon.'
Rahul hosptal me enter karte hi Dr.kirti dikh jati hai.
Rahul :' Dr.kirti aap?'
Dr.kirti: 'yes,mai everday morning yahan aati hoon---Arman ko dekhne.'
Rahu : wo kaisa hai?
dr.kirti : 'agar aaj mai na aati to bari muskil ho jati.usne to sari medicine fenk diye hain....pagalo ki tarah dr.riddhima ko boola raha hai. uthkar bhagne ki kosish kar raha hai.do bar gir chuka hai.maine bari muskil se use samjhaya hai.'
Rahul : 'abhi kya kar raha hai.'
Dr.kirti : 'abhi to so raha hai.maine need ka injection diya hai,per ishke baad aapko use sambhalna hoga.'
Rahul : 'ok Dr.kirti,i will try my best.'
hi guys,maine AR story waha se start kiya hai,jaha CV ne khatm kiya tha..i hope you like it...plz.do comments...
Thursday, February 18
Guys hum Aryan aur Sanjana ke baare mein toh bhul hi gaye,..!
Lets go and see what happens.
Ari drops everyone to school and heads back to his office.
While on this side Sanjana also completes her Work and decides to go for the meeting to Mr.Kapoor's Office.
They have never seen each other they have just talked on Phone.
So they are gonna meet for the first Time,
They both Enter the lift(elevator in US and Canada)
As soon Ari enters the Elevator he is lost somewhere. All he could see was the beauty in front of him.
" Excuse me sir! sorry for this but Will you mind stepping inside so that the elevator can close?"
One of the guy in the elevator said.
Ari broke his trance and stepped in.
But it wasnt different for sanj too. At his first site, She was lost. their were nearly 2-3 people except them in their. The guy who had asked Ari to step in was a new employee .
After sometime evryone left. and now only sanj and ari were left in there as ari's office was on first floor.
suddenly the elevator shook and with that sanj lost her balance. she closed her eyes expecting to open it in hospital only. But she didnt felt anything except for the touch around her waist that send chills through her body.
Ari got hold of her as soon as he saw her falling down. They had an eyelock..He could not help but stare at her Dark brown eyes, and even Sanj was lost in his Black eyes. sanj was the first one to break the trance. She was blushing badly. Ari suddenly shook his head, He made her stand straight. Then they realised that the lift has stopped.
Ari - (looking everywhere but her) I am really sorry woh aap girne waali thi aur...
Sanj - Thanks..!
Ari - (looked at her and smiled) you're welcome.
Ari opened a small box where there were some keys. He pressed some of them and the lift/ elevator started again.
As soon as they got out Saj went to the Manager to give the appointment file, while Ari went to his cabin giving last look at her.
He was sitting in his cabin trying to concentrate on his work, but all he could see was her mesmerizing face. He was in his trnace when suddenly his phone rang. He picked it up.
It was his PA(personal secretary)Alisha.
Ali- Hey Sir! Mrs.Sen is here for the meeting for your new project, Shall I send her in?
Ari- Oh yeah! sure send her in.
Ali- Ok sir.
Alisha put her phone down and told Sanj to go in.
Ari was trying his best to concentrate when someone knocked on his cabin door.
Ari- Come in!
Sanj entered in but was in shock to see Aryan there.
Sanj(in her mind)- He is Mr.Aryan Kapoor?
Just then Ari looked up. He stood up in shock. He acted so fast, that the strong border of hid glass table hit his knee.
He screamed holding his knee..!Making the cutest face ever. To which Sanj cant do anything but Smile. =)=P
Ari looked at her and he felt embarrassed.
Ari- Sorry woh mein..
Sanj-(supressing her lauhgter) o problem sir, I am Miss.Sanjana Sen. so shall we start our meeting?
Somewhere in his heart Ari felt good When she said MISS. (lol)
So Ari explained her what he wanted to do and Sanj explained her views.
Sanj was impressed by his Talent.
Sanj- Thank You sir, It was nice to meet you.
Ari - If you don't mind will you do me a Favor?
Sanj-(Smiled) Ofcourse sir why not?
Ari- (smiled back but with a frown)Would you Mind calling me Aryan? Because I dont like you calling me Sir.
Sanj-(Blushed) No prob-lem A-Aryan..
She didnt wait for him to reply. She went away from there.
Ari smiled to himself. As he had seen her blushing.
Then he shook himself.
" are yeh mere saath kya ho raha hai? mein aisa kyun soch raha hu? hey bhagwaan meri madad karo!!"
Now Lets see ke humaare youngsters kya kar rahe hai!
Adi,Ridzi,Tam and Karreena as RAKT
Armaan Avi as AA
RAKT were already in canteen. And chatting about how was their day.
AA entered the canteen and got their food. They were gonna sit at some other table when Adi noticed them.
Adi- Yo guys,Armaan and Avi. Hume ek hi din mein parayaa kar diya?
AA looked at them.
They smiled and went to them.
Ar- Hey guys..Hey Miss.Basket.
Ridzi was pissed off...
R- Dekho tum...
Avi- guys guys..Kya Armaan chhodna yaar. Kyu uske pichhe padha rehta hai.
Armaan chucled and started having his Sandwich.
Soon they were laughing and Chatting.
They seemed to be childhood friends(considering the fact that they r teens)
Ar- Guys did you read the notice board? 1 month ke baad Talent Show hai.
Tam- Yeah guys meine padha tha..
Avi- Toh kya kehte hai? Part le le?
Kar -Sure why not?
Rid- Haa, aur as we are new. agar humara talent sabko pasand aaya toh hume humari reputation ke liye mehnat bhi nahi karni padegi...
Ar- waah waah Basket ka dimaag chalta bhi nahi..
Rid- chalta nahi hai...chalta toh tumhara hai..isi liye tumhara dimaag chalke aage nikal gaya aur tum bina dimaag ke yaha reh gaye..!
Ar - Oooh...really? mujhe ahi pata tha..thank you so much for this information BASKET...
and he burst out in to laughter...
Tam- Armaan tum bhi na..!
Ar- maine kya kiya?
Avi- tujhe usse kya problem hai yaar?
Ar - Kuch nahi yaar..usko gussa karvaane mein bahot mazaa aata hai...!
Adi - I know right? Mujhe bhi...
Armaan and Adi highfived..
Avi- (changing the topic) so guys kaun kaun participate karga?
Adi- asusual mein aur kareena..I will play guitar and kareena will sing.
Avi- I am good at stage dances..but it will be good if I had a partner.
Kar- hey you can take Tam with you she is really good at stage dances.
Avi- If she doesnt mind.
Ar - I am gonna do Salsa...
Adi- Hey Ridzi does really good Salsa yaar..!
Rid-Arm- Iske saath..NO WAY..!
So guys here is the Part..
Hope you liked it..
Do comment..and CRITSIZE too,,
waiting for your reply...please tell me if i should Continue..
Sorry I wont be able to comment individually to all today..!
Am in skool..! but please do comment..!
Prats, Arzoo, D0LL
Armaan and Riddhima's accident.
They Just crossed the Race line..yes they won..! but........................
Everything blacked out....
----- opened his eyes and found himself in hospital----
Guys Mujhe promo dena nahi aata..!
sholly...but itna de diya..
hope its gud..!!!
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Tam & Avi goes to search for Ridzi...
On this side...Armaan and Adi are with DEVILS....
Lets go to Avi and Tam First..
They were now on in the hallway of their highschool...which was empty as the classes has already started..! But they were allowed to go around as it was their first day.
Tam- Pata nahi kaha gai hogi...What will she do..? She doesnt even know the way around here...
Avi- Dont worry Tamanna we will find her out..
Tam- But avinash she doesnt know anything about this school..!
Avi- I know we all are new but you have to understand you cant panic like this...!
Tam- I guess you are right...but now where would she be?
Avi- Koi aisi jagah hai joh use bahot achhi lagti ho?
tam- hmmm...yes...she will be on terrace...lets go check there! but where is it..?
Avi- lets ask someone around..
He went to a man sweeping the floor there.
Avi- Hi..woh aap bata sakte hai ki terrace kaha hai?
Sw- Ji..yaha se sidhe jaakar baaye mud jaana waha pe aapko sidi(stairs) dikhay denge..wahi par upar chale jaana.
Sw- No problem
Avi and Tam were surprised how can he speak english.
But guys i guess they didn't knew...EAST OR WEST INDIA IS THE BEST..!
So they went where the sweeper told him to.
And their she was. Leaning on the white railing of the terrace.
Tam- Ridzi..yaha kya kar rahi hai tu?Tujhe pata hai sab kitne pareshan hai?specially Adi..
Rid- Tam calm down..woh waha niche mujhe kuchh achha nahi lag raha tha..toh..
Tam- Toh tum kisiko bataye bina hi agayi?
Rid- achha meri maa sholly bas? ...Yeh kaun hai?
(looking at avi)
Tam - Oh oops..! Yeh Avinash hai. new student just like us...iska bhai bhi aaya hai...
Rid- (flashing a really swet smile) Hii..! I am Riddhima you can call me Ridzi..
Avi- Hi...and you can call me Avi too..!
They smiled at each other and then they started to go back to their friends.
On this side,,.
Dev- Are you sure tum logo ko race karni hai?
Adi- Kya hua? bache ko dar kag raha hai?
Both Adi and Armaan laughed and devils got as angry as ever..!
Dev- Thik hai toh next sunday, subah 9 baje death valley ke paas we will race..!!
Luc- but kisi bet ke bina race karne mein kya mazaa?
Adi and Armaan smirked..
Eric- why dont we do this..jo hara woh saamne waala jo kahega woh karega.....
Ar- this is too common yaar...
Vicky-Toh jo jita yeh ladki(pointing to kar) uske group mein rahegi..
Adi flared up at this- you cheap..
But Armaan stopped him..
Ar- hey mind you...This race is between three boys from our side and three from your Devils group..!
Sam- Ok then joh haara use school ko ek party deni hongi..agar tum haare toh tumhe hamare liye specially DEVILS ke liye Party deni hogi..Aur hum haare toh hum tumhe Welcome Party denge..!
Avi-Adi looked at each other and chuckled...
After this DEVILS went away...
Just then avi tam and ridzi came there...
When Riddhima and armaan looked at each other
Armaan - TUM?
Ar - TUM aur YOU ka meaning hai...
Ridzi- Shut up! what the hell are you doing here?
Ar- Armaan naam ke logo ko padhne ki permission nahi hai kya?
Adi - hey guyz...tum log ladh kyu rahe ho?
Rid- adi tum ise jaante nahi ho
Adi- Ridzi mein use janta hu..yeh Armaan Singh hai..Avi ka bhai..!
Ridzi ooked at both of them unbelievingly...
Ri- Yeh langoor Avi bhai hai?
Ar- hey mind your tongue...
Ri- Langoor ko langoor nahi toh kya Prince charming bulaungi...
Ar- Waise toh sab bulate hai tum bhi bula sakti ho Basket...
Ri- Prince my My foot...Aur tumne Abhi mujhe kya bulaya?
Ar- Behri ho kya.??? BAKSET?
Ri- Dont call me that...
Ar- Basket basket basket..
Ar- bahot handsome hu..i know..batabe ki zaryrat nahi hai..!
Others are still enjoying their fight when Suddenly..
" Yeh kya ho raha hai yaha?"
So here was my Part..
I will Update CUPID PLAYED ITS ROLE..! now
I will do alternate...
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SEGMENT 8: Kuch Na Kaho…
Date: 3rd August, 2009
How did I let this happen?
It was the first thing that popped in her mind as she regained consciousness. Lovy had awoken with a deep sense of anxiety already growing within her and was immediately taken by the overwhelming emotion of discouragement. Turning, she looked at Apoorva still sound asleep; utterly oblivious of the fact that anything at all might be amiss in the Universe. Lovy envied her ability to just accept whatever comes her way and not be rattled by anything. She always seemed so at peace. On the other hand, Lovy was in a constant state of agitation to one degree or another. Always trying to control her circumstances and seldom succeeding.
Today promises to be the same.
Aditya was gone and she could only feel remorse for what she could’ve done and hatred towards herself for not doing them. Lovy just could not bring herself to erase the thoughts of how Aditya had gone away from her, forever.
No longer would they see each other, smell each other’s scent, feel each other’s touch; those days were gone for good. It was inevitable, as she began to play the memories they found for each other, memories that she’d gladly keep and throw away everything else for. It was Aditya who went on his way, and she still couldn’t find herself to move an inch from the very spot where they both stopped being Us and started being You and Me.
Lovy closed her eyes and tried to sleep again, to try and dream of the days when they were both happy, uncaring for what the world might do to them.
The weeks became months, and the sun shone sheepishly upon the land. Aditya lay on his back on the hostel bed, his eyes viewed the ceiling as a canvas to which he knew Lovy painted her memories with him every morning, every night. He wanted, rather, needed to forget yet also dream of her at the same time every single day. Aditya was confronted with a dilemma every moment, a dilemma in which he hurt no less than the day they both bid their last words to each other.
He directed himself to his study table, and sat on the wooden, small chair to analyze the unfinished piece of work he’d been gifted by Lovy. Aditya tried to concentrate on the painting, failing miserably. He shook his head slowly, and buried it deep within his hands, taking a deep breath, and resting his forehead gently against the sketch. He could not believe how much he needed her; even after two months of isolation, his heart still insisted in torturing him.
Aditya realized that these were the first words that he had muttered this morning as he lost touch with his dreams and opened his eyes to reality. He no longer bore with him a smile every morning unlike back then, a smile which kept him looking forward to tomorrow. It's not that he wanted to die; he just did not want to live any further, at least not in this current life. There was nothing for him.
It was still so fresh to him, as if everything just happened yesterday. Lovy and he, it was fate that decided to join them and it was also fate that decided to separate them. Aditya always wondered why fate played a cruel joke on him, ever since he found out that his parents would never come back. It was all so fast that he felt as if time had slipped away from his palms that he couldn’t keep up, he couldn’t bear in mind the fact that they- he and Lovy were never meant to be. Time did not allow him to get used to this feeling yet.
Now Aditya found himself struggling to catch up on what had happened in his life. As the rest of the world moved on, he was stuck in the past and still could not accept what God had decided for him.
Boring! Boring!! Boring!!!
Lovy sighed and glared at Apoorva who kept chanting.
Lovy: Haan, bas tumhare Shahrukh ki films boring nahi hoti… baki sab to…
Apoorva: (yawning) Baki sab ka pata nahi but this…
She glanced at the television screen and then back at Lovy.
Apoorva: This is definitely b-o-r-i-n-g! Aur isey Shahrukh se to compare mat hi karo… usey to poora world manta hai, tumhare Armaan ko tumhare alaawa aur koi dekhta bhi hai?
As Lovy opened her mouth to retort, Apoorva silenced her with a wave of her hand.
Apoorva: Chalo kuch interesting karte hain…
Lovy: Haan… chalo MKRM padhte hain…
Apoorva stared at Lovy as if she had just told her to drown herself in the well.
Apoorva: Eurghh!!! Wo kisi ko pasand kaise ho sakta hai?
Lovy: Adi ko to tha…
Apoorva: Usey to tum bhi pasand thi…
Lovy’s eyes welled with tears as she tried desperately to ward off those memories. Everything had happened so quickly; it felt like so long ago.
Apoorva: (haltingly) Aaj Adi ka phone aaya tha…
Lovy still did not look at Apoorva.
Apoorva: Tum college me thi… tumhari baat hoti hai ussey?
Apoorva: Gmail pe?
Lovy: Hmm… blog pe bhi aa jaata hai kabhi-kabhi…
Lovy: So what?
Apoorva: Kya baat hoti hai?
Lovy: Tumhe kya karna hai jaan kar?
Apoorva: Kuch nahi. Wo theek hai wahaan pe…
Lovy: I know… maine kaha na baat hoti hai…
Apoorva: Lekin wo phone to nahi karta na… aur tum bhi usey call nahi karti…
Lovy: Main karti hoon… but… but wo pick hi nahi karta.
She again started to have difficulty in hiding her tears. Apoorva shook Lovy hard.
Apoorva: You idiot! Tumne mujhe bataaya kyun nahi? Ruko… main ussey poochhti hoon…
Daddy: (entering the room) Kya poochhna hai?
Seeing Apoorva’s face red with anger and Lovy close to tears, Daddy chose to sit between the two of them on the sofa, in order to prevent any pending fight.
Daddy: Dono ka mood kyun off hai… Armaan-Khan me ladayi ho gayi?
Apoorva, Lovy: (in unison) Nahi to!
Lovy: Aap bahut khush lag rahe hain… kya baat hai?
Daddy: (winking) Kyun bataun?
Apoorva: Bata dijiye… warna hume bhi poochhna aata hai… Mamma…
Daddy: Tumhari Mamma ko pata hai…
Lovy: Kya pata hai?
Daddy: (smugly) Yahi… trip ke baare me…
Apoorva, Lovy: (again unanimously) Trip? What trip?
Daddy: Hum log Bangalore ja rahe hain…
Apoorva: Hum log?
Daddy: I mean main aur…
Apoorva: Aur Lovy… mujhe to aap kahin nahi le jaate.
Daddy: Nahi-nahi… is baar tum chalo…
Apoorva: (with half a glance at her sister) Lovy ko hi le jaiye… waise bhi, mujhe tests ke liye prepare karna hai…
Daddy: To? Mera beta chalega mere saath? Bas do din… kal subah niklenge... parson waapas.
When Lovy did not answer, Daddy added.
Daddy: Aur Adi se bhi mil lenge…
Daddy: (discontentedly) Itna chhota sa response? Mujhe to laga tha tum ek room se doosre room koodti firogi…
Lovy: Mujhe… main… I’ll just go and pack. Thanks Daddy.
She bestowed a small hug to Daddy, a small, grateful smile to Apoorva and left for her room before the tears could overpower her composure.
Date: 4th August, 2009
The shout reached her ears before she was dragged inside and had Akanksha squeezing air out of her.
Akanksha: You’re here! Oh my God! I can’t believe you are here!
Ashish: (pulling Akanksha away and hugging Lovy himself) It’s so nice to see you!
Then he stepped back and looked at Lovy.
Ashish: Abhi bhi bimar ho kya?
Lovy: Nahi to…
Akanksha: To fir itni weak kyun lag rahi ho? Aunty khana nahi deti kya?
Daddy: (entering) Kya bola ja raha hai Aunty ke bare me?
Daddy greeted both and touched their feet.
Ashish: Uncle! Aap pair mat chhua kariye… hum aise hi aapko aashirvad de denge…
Akanksha: Haan Uncle, hume bahut awkward lagta hai… pair to hume aapke…
Daddy: (hitting Akanksha’s head lightly) Bachpan me to dus baar pair chhoone ko bolti thi… tab awkward nahi lagta tha?
Akanksha: (smiling) Nahi… bahut maza aata tha…
Daddy: Aur ab?
Lovy: Di, Ansh kahaan hai? Aur aapka baby… wo kaisa hai?
Ashish: (interjecting) ‘Kaisi hai’ bhi to ho sakti hai…
Lovy: Kash ‘kaisi hai’ hi ho…
Akanksha: Andar to aaiye aap log…
Daddy: (looking at his watch) Kaafi time ho gaya… hume chalna chahiye…
Akanksha: Kyun? Aap log kahaan ja rahe hain?
Daddy: Meri kal meeting hai… aur abhi tak humne hotel me check in bhi nahi kiya…
Ashish: You people are not going any where. Aap logon ko hotel me rehne ki kya zaroorat? Ye aapka ghar hai…
Daddy: Wo to hai, but formalities to poori karni padengi na…
Ansh, who had been hearing very attentively, now jumped onto Lovy’s lap.
Ansh: Babbi Machi nai jao… (Lovy Mausi, nahi jao)
Lovy: (smiling) Mausi kal waapas aa jayegi…
Akanksha: Haan Ansh… tumhari Mausi sirf tumhare Mamu se milne aayi hai… hum se thode hi…
Lovy: Di! That’s not fair!
Akanksha: (announcing) Uncle aap jaiye… Lovy yahin rahegi…
Ashish: Soch lo… next time jab hum log Lucknow aayenge to tumhare ghar nahi aayenge…
Lovy: Okay, blackmail mat kariye… main ruk jaungi… ruk jaun Daddy?
Daddy: (standing up) Ruk jao… achha, ab main chalta hoon.
Akanksha: Thodi der aur ruk jaate to Adi se mil lete…
Daddy: Sahabzaade se kal sham ko mil lenge…
He left and Akanksha took Lovy to the guest room, Ashish and Ansh followed them.
Akanksha: Pata nahi Adi aaj aayega bhi ya nahi…
Ashish: Usko assignment complete karna hai… shaayad kal subah hi aayega…
Akanksha: Hmm… Lovy?
Lovy: (shuddering) Ji?
Akanksha: Adi to mujhe kuch batata hi nahi… tum batao… aaj kal kya chal raha hai?
Lovy: Kuch nahi… bas college… studies…
Ashish: Painting? Writing?
Lovy: Hmm… kabhi-kabhi…
Akanksha: (noting Lovy’s gloomy mood) Aur boyfriends?
Lovy: (startled) Ji?
Akanksha: Haan… tumhe college me koi pasand nahi aaya? School me to…
Lovy: Ji nahi… na school me aur na college me…
Akanksha: Sharmao mat… bata do…
Lovy: Bataya to…koi itna achha mila hi nahi… the search is still on.
Ashish: Adi tumse zyada fast hai… usey koi mil gayi…
Ashish: Haan… isiliye wo aaj kal bahut kum aata hai… tumhe to pata hoga uske baare me?
Lovy: Nahi… meri Adi se is baare me baat nahi hui…
Akanksha: Kal jab aayega to poochh lena… abhi chalo mehendi lagaate hain…
Lovy: (resigning) Okay…
Date: 5th August, 2009
Forcing herself out of bed, Lovy headed into the washroom. After the bath, she smiled to herself as she struggled into the red salwar-suit, thinking how she really didn’t wear such frivolous apparel but, Aditya had bought it for her so that she could have some ‘girlish’ attire too. She had dug it out of the back of the closet when Daddy had announced about their trip.
One day, one whole day together, that was really something special. Lovy had nearly forgotten when she and Aditya had ever spent that much time together. Still she knew they were crazy about each other and neither of them was willing to give up what little they may have with each other simply because they weren’t able to be with one another physically every day. In June too, there had been many quite moments spent just ‘simply loving each other,’ as Lovy put it. They were romantic and deeply personal times, both in intimate and sensual ways that weren’t always sexual in nature.
Suddenly Lovy realized what was going on! She was going home today! In fact she was supposed to be at the airport by 4:30 that evening to catch her flight. That was it. It had to be. No wonder she was so unsettled. It was all ending today. She didn’t want it to end, today or ever. Even though Lovy knew that she had to do it this time, she could feel the anxiety gnawing at her gut once more, this time with such ferocity as she hadn’t experienced before. Last time Aditya did it, this time it had to be her. There was no choice! They couldn’t continually go through this sense of sadness and longing that eventually came each time they got together.
Aditya is fast. He already got himself a new girlfriend! What about me? Who is there for me? Who is good enough? Where can I find another Adi?
After Aditya’s departure, Lovy’s life had become clouded and dull. The food had lost its taste, and inspiration would not come to her. She couldn't sleep without being haunted by nightmares, and her heart ached for her chocolate eyed friend. She avoided him, isolating herself from the rest of the world, trying to be strong for the three of them; for Akanksha, Aditya and herself, failing miserably.
Lovy floated downstairs.
Adi: (raising his head and replying without thinking) Good morning!
He went back to the newspaper and then, with a sudden jolt in his stomach, he looked up again. It almost knocked him breathless when he saw the beautiful girl with curly hair standing in front of him with an angelic smile on her face. The dimples on her left cheek and her warm deep black eyes; they were the familiar features of the girl who he fell deeply in love with. The girl who came along and added color to his world of black and white.
Aditya thought he was dreaming, so he closed his eyes. He opened them slowly, half expecting the girl would disappear; but she was still standing there. She walked toward him and sat down on the sofa beside him.
Ashish: (smiling) Someone’s looking beautiful!
Lovy: Someone’s looking hungry! Di nahi uthi? Main coffee bana laun… ya fir tea?
Ashish: Tea… aur Adi, close your mouth!
Aditya did so, without knowing what he was doing. He kept staring at Lovy until she went and disappeared into the kitchen. Without excusing himself, Aditya literally ran to the kitchen to prove he hadn’t been dreaming. Lovy turned her head on hearing the footsteps and then turned back to the stove.
Adi: Tum… tum kab aayi?
Ayu: Kal… tea or coffee?
Adi: Tea… no… coffee…
Ayu: Kyun? Tum to chai peete ho…
Adi: Hum dono ke liye coffee banao, Di-Jeej ke liye tea aur Ansh ke liye Bournvita…
Ayu: (scowling) Bana rahi hoon… tum help mat karna… jao, baitho aaraam se.
Aditya moved forwards and took the coffee jar out of Lovy’s hand. This natural visit was unexpected and took a second to reconcile his moods. Even though they couldn’t be as close as they were ever, it was muddy in recent past. He didn’t realize how far they have went by and at the same time how inseparable they must had been. It was as if like the oxygen could not escape the atmosphere of the earth; like the gravity that would not allow the earth to bridge with the sun, lest it is destroyed. Thus this distance must also have been their bond.
Yes, it was after such a long time, that Aditya was seeing her.
Can the heart recognize her? Can it remember her voice? Can it tell who she was?
Adi: You’ve changed so much, Ayu!
Biting back a retort, Lovy glanced away. She had not realised that such were his feelings, and that he would notice the changes she had gone through.
Adi: Thank you very much for coming.
Aditya’s voice sounded automatic, but his eyes said different. His gaze searched hers, and she smiled briefly, knowing suddenly that he was happy to see her. His eyes followed her features as she turned to make the tea. She’d lost weight, so much so that she looked slight and unhealthy. Her face had lost its colour, her curly hair now reached the shoulders and her eyes dragged like those of someone who hadn’t slept in a long time.
Adi: Kya hua? Kuch bolna nahi hai?
Ayu: (not looking at him) Tea and coffee ready…
Adi: Aur kuch nahi bolna?
Ayu: Tum kaise ho?
Adi: Kaisa lag raha hoon?
Lovy had to look up to answer that and as soon as she looked up, she got lost. The tears didn’t seem to want to come. They’d been sucked into the vast vacuum inside of her and weren’t going to come out. Maybe she’d done all the crying she could in these last two months. She threw herself into his arms, comforted by the now odd, but still familiar feeling of his arms around her, his head bowed to hers in the pain she knew he too shared. Lovy managed a watery smile, which only partially showed how happy she was to see him.
Adi: (taking her hand in his) Tumhari mehendi humesha itni black kaise ho jaati hai?
Ayu: Mera body temperature high rehta hai na… to iski wajah se mehendi…
Adi: Chup karo… mehendi doosre reason ki wajah se zyada rachti hai… jab kisi ko koi bahut zyada pyar karta hai, tab…
Ayu: Achha? Tumhe bada pata hai…
Adi: Bilkul… tumhare saath itne years ka experience jo hai…
Akanksha: (entering the kitchen) Mil liye tum dono?
Both separated. The moment had gone as suddenly it had come.
Lovy: I was just bringing the breakfast… aapko aaraam karna chahiye…
Akanksha: Abhi nahi bachcha… abhi bahut din hain aaraam karne ke liye…
They all came out and seated themselves.
Akanksha: Pehle tika kar lein? Fir breakfast… Lovy, tum rakhi layi ho na?
Adi: (horrified) Rakhi?
Akanksha: Haan… Rakshabandhan ke liye hi to aayi hai Lovy…
Aditya looked at Lovy, wanting with all his might to tell her to refuse. But when Lovy nodded, Aditya stood up.
Lovy: Main jeeju ko rakhi bandhungi…
Adi: (falling back on the sofa) Oh… oh… okay…
Lovy grinned and went upstairs to bring the rakhi.
He pulled the car and was around to open Lovy’s door before she even made the attempt at the handle. She looked surprised to see Aditya with his hand extended. She looked back over at the driver’s side of the car before she put her hand in his and stepped out to feel the air.
They needed some fresh air; an open space, a free runway: to sail away, to fly away. They needed to climb a mountain, touch the sky, and be the tree and the air. So Aditya had driven her here on the excuse of showing her the city- to test themselves, to find out something, to soothe the pain. So long they have been together; so long they will walk by.
The day was not unusual, but it looked so for her. The sun behaved strangely, the wind blew in the opposite direction and the road didn't welcome them. It seemed no-one was happy, and she too became a bit confused as to why Aditya should take her on this journey in this abhorrent day. She glanced at Aditya.
Aditya stood quite at ease, his face facing up the sky. A big smile lit on his face. Why did the sky seemed so blue and the sun so bright suddenly? He took a deep breath out of his surroundings. Why was it that the air smells like some exotic scent? Looking around the place, he noticed flowers he had never seen were there before. All these time, how could he have missed out all these vibrant colours?
Was he really so blind, so senseless before- before his Ayu came?
Ayu: What’s this place?
Adi: A place where you can see the whole world.
He took her hand and pulled her toward the brown benches. Aditya sat down on the bench and patted the seat next to him. Lovy’s fingers clenched against the strange sensation of warmth lingering on her palm. She sat down beside him and realized, for the first time, where she was. The big, round sun seemed so close; it was as if she was standing right next to it. Lovy had never imagined a place like this would exist in this city. It was almost magical.
Ayu: (exclaiming) Wow!
Adi: It’s pretty, na? Main yahaan tab aata hoon jab problems solve na ho rahi ho. I like sitting here, feeling the cool breeze and just relax, throw away the unpleasant things. I just fell in love with this place somehow.
“Just like how I fell in love you,” Lovy wanted to say. They sat in silence for a long moment, enjoying the cool breeze. Both wished time could just freeze here; in this magical place, having each other.
Ayu: (very sure, the thought of Aditya’s girlfriend now vanished from her mind) Tum yahaan pehli baar kisi ke saath aaye ho na?
Adi: (laughing) Haan… main usually yahaan akele aata hoon…it gives me more time to think when I have trouble.
Ayu: Tum mujhe yahaan kyun laye?
For some reason, Aditya couldn’t take his eyes of her. There was something in Lovy’s eyes that held his attention, but he wasn’t sure what it was. She met his gaze for one short second then quickly looked away as if she had received the answer.
They stood waiting, for what, I'm not sure. Their arms were linked as they looked off into the distance. The light winds brought refreshing crisp air into their lungs. They were alone. Aditya pulled his arm from the crook of Lovy’s elbow and slid it behind her back. He sighed. It was a happy sigh, because Lovy was there with him. She completed his world. She was like a puzzle piece that was made to fit Aditya’s perfectly.
Everything would be all right. Or would it?
Aditya turned her face and made her look into his eyes which were lit with a sparkle of love. As her gaze locked with his, Aditya’s heart raced. She pressed her cheek against his chest and sighed with comfort. He wrapped his arms around her, with no intention of letting go and gently rested his chin on her head. Lovy pushed on Aditya’s chest and looked up into his eyes.
Time stopped and did not move on until Aditya drove Lovy back to the house.
As her lips caressed his neck, he came back to reality. Lovy kissed his forehead and Aditya shrugged her off. At this ruthless act, Lovy turned her face and soul away from him.
Adi: Ayu… I’m…
Ayu: (tears streaming down) Don’t you dare say sorry!
Adi: Ayu… suno to…
Ayu: Please Adi… Daddy aane wale honge… mujhe ye sab pack karna hai…
She slid off the bed and started to gather her things, throwing them haphazardly into her bag. Aditya tried to help her and put the things in a more systematic way. Lovy glowered at him but Aditya did not back off.
Adi: (holding by the shoulders) Ayu…
Lovy pulled her out of Aditya’s grip and stood, hugging herself with her slender, pale arms. Her scarlet lips, small and delicate quivered uncontrollably. Her eyes, black and deep were glossy, welled up with the hot, salty tears staining her rosy cheeks.
Ayu: Tumhe yaad hai, Adi? Tumne kaha tha ki jab mujhe pyar hoga, to mujhe uska matlab khud samajh me aa jayega…
Ayu: (whispering, making him stiffen) I know what love is, now.
His voice was hoarse.
Ayu: Haan… you know Adi… mere liye pyar wo insaan hai jisne mujhse meri har khushi, meri har hansi, mera sabse achha dost, mera pyar, meri zindagi mujhse chheen li…
She stopped for a second, saw Aditya’s reaction on these words and moved on.
Ayu: But still I can’t do anything… main aaj bhi ussey pyar karti hoon aur karti rahungi… apni aakhiri saans tak…
Adi: (quite involuntarily) DMG’s dialogue…
Lovy looked at Aditya, begging him to understand.
Ayu: (mumbling) DMG…
Her bloodshot eyes hid themselves behind her pupils, not wanting to meet his stare.
Ayu: Meri life DMG nahi hai… but shaayad… stories likhte-likhte… meri khud ki life bhi ek story ki tarah ho gayi hai…
She started, hiccupping as she began to cry once again.
Ayu: Lekin main chaah kar bhi is story ki happy ending nahi likh sakti… main… main ab kabhi kuch nahi likhungi… kabhi nahi…
Aditya felt his stomach twist in pity as he saw her sink to her knees and lean against the wall. She sobbed, and her body shook violently, like a tree at the mercy of a hurricane. Leaning down, he picked her up in his arms, and gently sat her on the old, soft loveseat. She leaned against the cushions and exhaled deeply, wiping her tears away from her eyes and smoothing her hair.
“Ayu!?” he asked, alarmed, pulling her shaky, cold body to his own, warm and strong. He gently wrapped his arms around her, warming her frail form, and supporting her weight. His deep voice echoed through her ears, only to make her cry harder, burying her head within his chest. Aditya felt his t-shirt hugging his chest, wet with her sad, miserable tears. He gently kissed the top of her head, trying to soothe her, to console her.
Was she crying because he didn’t let her kiss him?
Kissing Lovy was something he could do forever, and ever… if reality and life didn’t get in the way, he really could. Did she know the way his skin burned and smouldered at just a touch? Did she know the electric pulse she sent through his veins, every time she kissed him? He was guessing he didn’t, although he did hope that she felt the same. Aditya had always had doubts about Lovy loving him. For one thing, it didn’t make sense. She was good and honest and true and maybe not perfect (Aditya wasn’t so completely blind to Lovy’s flaws) but he loved those flaws and even if she wasn’t perfect, she was perfect for him.
And she couldn’t be crying for any silly reason! But knowing her, Aditya had to re-think about it. She could, after all, she was his Ayu!
Finally, Aditya pulled her away, and searched her eyes, finding sincerity and misery in her bloodshot, wet gaze. He cupped her cheeks, and leaned into her, softly brushing his lips against her forehead, then her nose and then her lips. Lovy smiled softly as she realised that Aditya was converting her fantasy into reality.
Adi: (in pure Armaan style) Oye hoye!
Lovy smiled harder. Aditya then gazed deeply into her eyes and even when she was gazing right back, he asked, “Meri taraf dekho, Ayu” sending Lovy into peals of laughter.
Adi: (without missing the opportunity) Tum hansti achhi lagti ho…
Aditya knew her head was moving up toward him. He could see her desire for his touch - the embrace that was to come; something that wasn’t in MKRM was going to happen. He wrapped his arms around her soft shoulders. She placed her hand on his strong chest. He knew she was looking up at him. He bent to kiss her again. Their lips met. Softly at first, increasing in sensuality and passion as the moments slipped by. Passionately they kissed, his left arm moving to bring her closer to him. His right hand cupping her waist.
The two lovers sat for a while. They didn't speak. They only listened to the beating of each others hearts. Lovy ruffled Aditya’s hair and kissed his neck while gently moving her palms across his back. When she shifted restlessly in his embrace, Aditya could kick himself for not knowing that they would be this explosive. He ran his hands up her back, unintentionally dragging her apparel with him. He hesitated, and, then, giving into instinct, he walked his fingers down again, his gut clenching as his hands encountered bare skin. The desperate pleasure at the contact caused him to up the tempo of their kiss, but when Lovy trembled nervously, Aditya was immediately contrite. The obsessive rule follower in Lovy and the perfect gentleman in Aditya caused them to be angry with themselves for a moment. Both did not look at each other as they soon realised that this was the end of it all.
The awkward silence dragged on; Aditya seemed to be waiting for her to say something but Lovy looked straight ahead, pretending nothing had happened. Not wishing to prolong the moment, Aditya spoke.
Adi: Ab hum kabhi nahi milenge…
It wasn’t a question, so he never knew just what was on Lovy’s mind. She stood up and turned towards the door.
Lovy turned towards him, inquiringly.
Adi: (coming forwards) Tumhe yaad hai, jab hum pehli baar miley the?
Lovy nodded in puzzlement.
Adi: (without taking his eyes off her) Tab tum itni chhoti si thi… aur tab mujhe bilkul nahi pata tha… ki tum… tum meri angel hogi.
Ayu: (emotions giving way to tears) Tumhe ek bahut achhi angel milegi… jo tumhe kabhi hurt nahi karegi… humesha tumhare saath rahegi… tumse bahut, bahut, bahut pyar karegi…
Adi: Aur tumhe bhi tumhara bestest friend milega, jo tumse kabhi nahi ladega, kabhi tum pe gussa nahi hoga… kabhi bhi tumhe nahi rulayega…
He caressed her cheeks with his thumbs, wiping away the tears.
Adi: Meri tarah…
Why was the day so short today?
Adi: (honest to the core, making Lovy cry hard) I love you…
Ayu: (with tear-filled eyes) I…
Adi: Shhh… don’t say it…
Ayu: (more urgently and obstinately) I…
Aditya did not let her speak. He gently captured her lips in a soft, delicate kiss, pouring his feelings in the caress, feeling the softness of her warm mouth. When both parted, Lovy was still determined. It was as if she had vowed that she would say it today, however much Aditya tried to stop her.
As she looked at him, those pleading eyes urged her not to speak, not to declare.
Ayu: Goodbye Adi, forever…
Aditya felt sick. The two of them had never felt so right. But he could see it in her eyes, she already made her decision. It was too late. He could hear the cold, hard edge in her words as they cut deeper wounds in his heart.
Ayu: Let’s just go back to how our lives were before we met.
She turned around and walked away. Aditya watched as Lovy’s shadow created a distance between them and with every step she took, it got wider and wider. She wiped her face with the back of her hand and continued walking with her arms folded across her chest. He couldn’t bear to watch her in pain. The wounds in his heart ripped itself open and the unbearable pain tortured him. Aditya was falling apart.
He ran up to Lovy and put his arms around her waist. Ignoring her struggles, Aditya held her tighter in his arms, refusing to let her go. She slowly complied with his wish, wrapping herself possessively in his arms, enjoying the feeling of being complete once again.
Adi: I love you, Ayu… I’ll always love you. Please, let me hold you and never let you go
Ayu: (whispering softly) Just hold me tight…
She could feel her knees giving away, but Aditya was there to support her.
He had always been there.
Lovy placed her palm on his cheek and kissed- so passionately that they didn’t part for several seconds. When the need for oxygen became too much to endure, Aditya pulled away, still not letting her go. They still stood close, in each other’s arms. Aditya kissed Lovy’s forehead as Daddy knocked at the door. Both separated, quite unwillingly and Daddy entered the room. Aditya let go of Lovy’s hand, moved forwards and touched Daddy’s feet who blessed him.
All the while Daddy asked about his well-being, Aditya was silent. He felt guilty. He shouldn’t have let Lovy get close to him. He knew she would have difficulty in getting over it. And now, he was certain that Daddy had watched them. He knew that Daddy knew. And Aditya blamed himself for breaking Daddy’s trust.
Why was everything going wrong? Why couldn’t anything be alright?
Daddy: (after five minutes of talking to someone who didn’t hear even a word of it) Ab hume chalna chahiye. Flight ka time ho raha hai… chalein Lovy?
For the first time after he had entered the room, Daddy looked at Lovy. She met his gaze nervously not wanting to see doubts and hurt in those ever so calm eyes. There were no doubts; there was no hurt, only a vast ocean of love and comfort. Lovy could not help but cling onto Daddy’s arm and walk towards the door with him.
She turned her head slightly to Aditya’s direction and muttered, “Goodbye.”
Aditya wanted to chase after her but he couldn’t move; it was like his feet were planted to the ground. Lovy was out of sight and he knew that was it. The end of his happiness. The end of everything. Aditya sat on the bed and stared at the ceiling. Everything seemed dark now; the clouds overlapping the ray of sunlight and the moon and stars disappeared from his night sky. All the brightness was gone with her.
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The preparatioms for the triple wedding were on the high with hardly any1 free in the household. A whole wave of excitement prevailed the gupta house as the three brides were dressed up for their mehendi.
Their were the emotional outbursts too wid padma n shashank sad abt the fact tht thr three daughters would leave the house bt also happy tht they had found thr life partners.
Though Shashank had insisted on Riddhhima meeting d guy, she had clearly refused saying tht she trusted her dads choice. Anjali and Muskaan had teased her wid d guyz photo n she got just a glimpse of it for a second. He was a guy wid brown gelled hair. That was all she was able to catch in tht second. Not tht she was interested in any way.
She had got over her crying and accepted life. Infact now thr was hardly any time to sit n think anythng. She never found herself alone even for a minute to think anythng peacefully. The only thing tht really hurt her now was tht Muskaan never questioned her abt her decision or breakup wid Armaan. But thn she undrstud tht she was herself too excited abt her own wedding.
The mehendi ceremony started wid a lot of dance n music. Everyone enjoyed before they started applying the mehendi. Some special women were called for applying the brides mehendi. As the three brides got their hands decorated, thr was a lot of teasing as to whoz wld be d darkest.
The evening passed out wid the celebrations and at night when padma n shashank went off to sleep, the three brides sat chit chatting. Finally Anjali fell asleep n thts wen Muskaan spoke up.
'Ridzi...plz dun thnk anythng mean abt me...i din bring it up coz i din want u to be distrbed.'
'I undstd Musk...its k..'
'Ridzi....dun worry...trust me ...u will be very happy...the guy uncle has chosen is very nice n decent....he will alwaz keep u happy...'
Riddhima smiled weakly at her n she smiled bak in assurance.then she continued.
"You will be very happy Ridzy...i can assure you tht.....n trust me....the colour of ur mehendi is gonna be the darkest.'...saying so she too pulled up her covers n slept off leavng riddhima in her chain of thoughts.
But she cdnt go deep into her thoughts as her cell buzzed n she receivd a message. It was from an unknown number. She opened it n it read,
'Hi...u looked very pretty today.'
She frowned at her mobile. Who was it? Armaan was her first thought bt she discarded it havng no hopes from him. He hadnt reactd at all wen she had told him she was gettng married. He had made no move to stop the marriage. If he din care thn , thn y wld he now.
So who cld it be?
'May i know who is it complimenting me?" she replied bak on d number n waited patiently. She had almost fallen asleep when she got an answer bak.
'Oopsss....did i not introduce myself?? sorry abt it...shd i now?? or wld u like me to remain d mystery man?"
She frowned deeper this time. Mystery man? Who cld it be? Not armaan. Then who.Before she cld reply bak she got another mesg. A long one.
'Ok..i suppose u got a bit irritated....well ..the best introduction wld be tht we r getting married day after tomorrow...so u see...i thought it wld be good if i spoke to my wld be wife atleast once..i hope i am nt distrbng ur sleep...actually our parents fixed the marriage so i jus wanted to ask if ur happy or not...i am very happy....n i had a hell life today trying to get a glimpse of u from outside the window........i srsly hope ur happy wid dis marriage...if not thn plz do tell me...i wdn't mind anyway....do sleep well..n sweetdreamz..good night...'
She closed her eyes thnkng. Her wld be husband. Tht sounded so very odd to her. But it was also ture. Was she happy? Yes. She was happy tht her parents, friendz n sister was happy. So how could she not be happy?
She thought again of her would be husband. Someone wid brown hair. But what was his name?? She realised for the first time tht she din even know her would be husbands name. She slightly nudged Anjali.
"What ridzy?" she asked sleepily.
"Dee...what is his name?"
"Whoz name Ridzi?" Anjali turned her bak to her.
"The grooms name dee.."
"Deeee..i mean mine"
"oh yourz....." she paused a second. "Vivek. Vivek Oberoi"
And she slept off. Riddhima thought for sometime again.
She then replied to the mesg shortly.
'Yes i am happy too Vivek....good night.'
How true were those wordz??
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Wednesday, February 17
Hey All, I'm Late I know!! I know, I am updating after exactly 1 WHOLE MONTH. so I won't keep you waiting any longer, so read on.....
The seven hour operation was finally complete. An exhausted Keerti made her way out through the glass double doors of the operation theater. She removed her surgical mask and gown, and dejectedly threw the surgery uniform in the disposal bin. Subsequently she walked towards the stainless steel sink where she washed her shaking hands and splashed the cold water over her face as to soothe her down from what she had experienced in the OT. Keerti was known for her skills in the OT. She was a dexterous surgeon, competent and good at her job, no wonder she was so popular amongst surgeons in India. She had operated on hundreds and had faced many situations, where the outcome was not pleasant, but never had she felt the way she felt today.
The beads of water trickled down the side of her face as she crouched beside the sink. Keerti a women never to lose her composure and determination was today kneeling down as a wave of defeat overtook her body. Shubhankar quietly walked behind her and put his hands on her shoulder. He removed the face flannel from the rack and passed it over to Keerti. She took it and absentmindedly placed it on the sink surface. Shubhankar just stared at Keerti; he hated seeing her in this miserable state. He liked her dominating nature; at least she smiled that way. Keerti looked up at him.
Keerti: Why Shubhankar, why? Why must life play such a cruel twist like this on them? I mean what did they ever do? Armaan and Riddhima are two of the nicest people I have had good fortune to come across and now they must suffer these unfortunate consequences. Those who wish best for everyone must now suffer. It's not fair Shubhankar, it's not fair.
Shubhankar could comprehend with Keerti's state of mind. If it weren't for Armaan Keerti and Shubhankar would never have come together. She was right, it wasn't fair.
Shubhankar: Keerti, I know what you mean it isn't fair, however you must keep in mind that we are not God. You did your bit; you tried your best, but now you must leave the rest in God's hands.
Keerti: What God Shubhankar? Which God? If there was a God then we wouldn't be seeing this day today. God has been said to be omniscient, but if he knows how much both Armaan and Riddhima have had to suffer, then why would he continue to make their lives more miserable.
Shubhankar merely nodded, he knew Keerti was not thinking and was just saying whatever came to mind.
Keerti (Tear Stricken): How will I tell them Shubhankar? How can I tell Armaan; who once brought us two together, that we can do no more to save his daughters life.
Shubhankar kneeled down to Keerti and she placed her head on his knees.
After some time Keerti raised her head.
Shubhankar: Keerti I think it's time we told them. It's unfair to keep them waiting.
Keerti nodded. She stood up, picked up the face flannel from the sink, dried her face and was ready to go and face Armaan and Riddhima. Shubhankar held her hand, and they both entered the ICU waiting area, where Armaan and Riddhima were sitting. Riddhima had once again fallen asleep on Armaan's chest, Armaan saw them enter. He gently placed Riddhima's head on the chair seat beside him and placed his jacket under her head. He then walked up to Keerti.
Armaan (Hesitantly): Maam...
Keerti (Not looking at Armaans face but at Riddhima sleeping beside him): Armaan, the truth is that Aahana...Aahana....
She stopped midway through her sentence
Armaan: (Pleadingly): Maam please, I just need to know
Keerti (Now looking Armaan in the eyes): The truth is... (Allowing no tears to escape her eyes and taking a deep breath) Armaan, she is not responding to the treatment, she inhaled too much smoke which has caused tremendous damage to her developing lungs, she is in a lot of pain... and...and... she is currently on a Life Support Machine.
Armaan was stunned. Nobody spoke. Keerti began crying. She enveloped Shubhankar in a hug. Armaan looked at Riddhima sleeping who was unaware of the situation and then looked up at Keerti who had detached herself from Shubhankar.
Keerti: I am sorry Armaan
Armaan (Sincerely) : Thank You Maam, for trying your best. If it is of no problem, may I be excused?
Keerti and Shubhankar left the ICU waiting area.
Armaan went to wake Riddhima up. He wanted to take her away from the hospital to break the news to her.
Armaan (softly): Baby wake up
Armaan: Come on Riddhima we need to go outside. I want you to come to the temple
Riddhima (Rubbing her eyes): Armaan par Aahana. Aur toh Aur Armaan you don't believe in God? So why temple all of a sudden?
Armaan (faintly smiling): Please?
Riddhima: Sure Armaan we will go, but Aahana? Do you deem it right to leave whilst her operation is going on?
Armaan: We will only be gone for a short period of time, I promise. And look Niki, Atul, Muski, Rahul, Anjie and Abhi are all here.
Riddhima: Abhi? Armaan tum theek haun? Are you okay? When did Mr Abhimanyu Modi become Abhi for you?
Armaan thinking to himself how one experience can change everything... A relation which he himself never thought would change changed instantly.
Riddhima realised that Armaan must have found out that Abhi saved Aahana from the burning house, thus the removal of the wall which they had built between themselves.
Riddhima: Choro ye sab.. Armaan you're sure right? I'm scared... Leaving Aahana and all...
Armaan: Riddhima I am sure, we will be back soon. Everybody is here.
Riddhima: Okay, let's go.
Armaan and Riddhima both leave and go. Armaan starts the car and they drive off Riddhima puts her seatbelt on, and places her head on Armaan's shoulder whilst he drives. They pass the temple and Armaan is still driving
Riddhima (she jerks up from Armaan's shoulder): Armaan tum kaha jaa rahe haun? Mandir to piche chala gaya.
Armaan does not answer, he continues driving
Riddhima (panicking): Armaan stop the car and turn back, the temple is long gone. If you continue taking this road we will head towards the beach. She began crying.
Armaan still did not answer despite Riddhima's continuous chant of 'Please turn back' and her tears.
They finally arrived at the beach. Armaan got down from the car and headed out walking towards the sand.
Riddhima instantly jumped out of the car demanding to know what Armaan was doing. She followed him out of the car.
Riddhima (SHOUTING): What the hell Armaan!! Yeh kya batameezi hain? What the heck do you think you are doing!!
Armaan did not turn around. Tears were glazing his face. He did not know how he was going to tell Riddhima that they had to turn Aahana's life support machine off.
Riddhima: Armaan what on earth is your problem. Our daughter is fighting between LIFE and DEATH and here you want to spend time at the BEACH- she said sarcastically.
Riddhima: Armaan look at me when I am talking to you.
Riddhima was getting highly frustrated. Armaan was not replying any of her questions and nor would he turn around to look at her.
She went up to him, held his shoulder to turn him around and was about to continue shouting at him
Riddhima (SCREAMING): ARMAAN DO YOU HAVE NO....
She stopped her sentence midway, as she saw the tears vigorously falling from his eyes. His tears instantaneously brought a change to her voice.
Riddhima (gently): Armaan... Baby.
She had hardly ever seen him cry. It ached her seeing him in this state. She suddenly realised that not once in the duration of the whole situation had she seen Armaan cry. Come to think of it, not once had she asked him how he was feeling. She herself had been too busy crying and he had been her support. A surge of guilt overtook Riddhima.
Riddhima: Armaan, Baby I'm really very sorry, and saying that she instantly enveloped him in a hug.
Neither of them spoke. They just stood there hugging one another, forgetting the world outside. After some time they disengaged from the hug. Riddhima placed her palm to his cheek and said
Riddhima: Armaan I am really very sorry. It was selfish of me to forget how you must be feeling in this situation.
Armaan did not reply
Riddhima: Armaan are you mad at me? I'm very sorry, she began crying.
Armaan (hugging her once again): I am not mad at you. I can never be angry with you. But..
Riddhima: But what Armaan...
Armaan: Riddhima I brought you out here for a reason. You needed to clear your mind, because we need to make a decision... and that too very quickly.
Riddhima (looking up at Armaan): Kaisa decision Armaan? What kind of decision, and that too at a time like this?
Riddhima: Aahana what?
She again detached herself from Armaan
Riddhima: What about Aahana? Tell me Armaan? Bolo!! Aahana ko kya hua??
Armaan could not look Riddhima in the face. Riddhima took hold of his hand.
Riddhima: Please Armaan tell me. You are scaring me. Please...
Armaan knew he would have to tell her soon, he began to look out at the sea, his eye fixated at the horizon.
Armaan: Riddhima, we have to make a decision; Dr Keerti tried her best, too much damage has been done to Aahana's lungs. Aahana is currently in a lot of pain and is on a life support machine.
Riddhima unceremoniously dropped Armaan's hand as if it burnt.
Riddhima: Yeh tum... Yeh tum kya kehrahe haun? Armaan what are you saying?
Armaan: Riddhima, we have to decide to switch off the machine, Aahana is in A LOT of pain.
Riddhima: Shut up Armaan. Just shut up. How can you say such a thing? Kill my daughter. You may not love her Armaan, but I do. She may mean nothing to you Armaan, but she is MY DAUGHTER.
Riddhima turned around. How dare Armaan say such a thing? She turned around after some time to see what else Armaan had to say; but was shocked when she saw Armaan's pale face, as he stood there frozen. Riddhima could see the vestiges of pain on Armaan's face after what she had just said. She did not mean to say any of that. It was her anger speaking.
Riddhima (crying): Armaan I am sorry, I didn't mean too... Armaan.
Riddhima: Armaan Please...
Armaan: I know you didn't mean it. But remember Riddhima she is OUR daughter. And as much as you are hurting right now, so am I.
Riddhima: I know Armaan I am sorry. But Armaan I cannot do it. I just can't
Armaan: I know Riddhima it is difficult, but Aahana is in A LOT of PAIN. She is suffering.
Riddhima shook her head, Armaan I can't. I just can't....
Armaan just stood there motionless. He did not know how to respond. Riddhima rested her head on his chest and began crying. Minutes passed like this. Riddhima had come to terms with the situation by now.
Riddhima: Armaan we have to do this don't we? We can't let her suffer like this can we?
Armaan: I think it's the right thing to do Riddhima. Keerti maam said we can keep it for as long as we need, but it's unfair to continue to make Aahana suffer, when we know there will be no change.
He enveloped his arms around her. Riddhima began crying. He let her cry to her heart's content.
After some time Riddhima's crying had lessened.
Armaan: I think it's time we headed back to Sanjeevani. It's time Riddhima.
Riddhima merely nodded.
The car ride back to Sanjeevani was one in silence. Riddhima looked out of the window and Armaan kept his eyes fixed on the road. Armaan opened the door to Riddhima's side of the car once they had arrived. She got down and tightly held his and. They both entered the main doors of the hospital and headed straight up. Everybody was already up there waiting. Keerti had already informed everybody else about Aahana's state and everybody sat there crying; their faces forlorn. As soon as they saw Armaan and Riddhima they all stood up and immediately wiped their tears. Riddhima couldn't take it. She immediately looked up at Armaan. Armaan and Riddhima walked up to Keerti and informed her about their decision. Keerti agreed. It was not fair to keep Aahana in so much pain.
Keerti: Armaan you will have to sign the papers.
The reality hit Armaan hard. He had to give consent to allow the doctors to turn the life support machine off. In other words 'Kill his daughter'
Armaan's hand began to tremble and the pen was shaking. Abhimanyu came beside him. Niki went and took Riddhima to sit with her and Anjali.
Abhi: Armaan, it is difficult, and right now you probably feel like you are killing her, but remember Armaan the amount of pain she is currently enduring is unbearable.
Atul and Rahul came towards him, and in unison said-
Atul & Rahul: You are doing the right thing Armaan.
Muskaan then walked over
Muskaan: Armaan nobody is judging you.
She then hugged Armaan.
Armaan signed the papers. He then walked over to Riddhima. She stood up and held his hand firmly.
Everybody looked up at the couple as they walked into the ICU. They had so much strength within themselves to take up such a decision, and everybody respected them.
Aahana's machine was switched off, and Armaan and Riddhima entered the ICU hand in hand. Keerti handed Aahana over to Riddhima and quietly left the trio.
Armaan settled down on the chair. Riddhima sat in his lap with Aahana in her hands. Aahana began playing with Riddhima's fingers, grasping them tightly. Armaan and Riddhima looked into one another's eyes and shared a watery smile. Riddhima placed Armaan's hand under Aahana's head. They could hear Aahanas little heart beat slowing and her fingers began to slowly loose grasp of Riddhima's. She finally lost grasp of Riddhima's fingers and smiled. Riddhima quickly turned her head to Armaan's shoulder and began crying. Tears fell from Armaan's eyes and landed on Riddhima's shoulder.
Riddhima: Armaan she's gone.
Riddhima: She's gone Armaan... Gone...
Armaan: (Armaan shaking Riddhima) Riddhima wake up. Riddhima utho.
Riddhima: Tears pouring out of her eyes. Armaan, Aahana chaliygay. Armaan, the beach, and the car, and the forms and the life support machine. She's gone Armaan. She's gone....
Armaan: Riddhima tum yeh kya keh rahi haun? What beach, what forms? What machine? And these tears. Riddhima are why you crying baby?
Riddhima: But... but I saw... I saw...I saw...
Armaan: Baby you must have seen a bad dream.
He wiped away her tears and she began shaking.
Riddhima: It was horrible Armaan, really very horrible
Armaan: Ssshhhhh.... It was only a dream.
Riddhima nodded placing her head on Armaan's chest. He stroked her hair.
Riddhima (whispering): How long left Armaan till the operation is finished?
Armaan: Just over an hour left.
Riddhima: Armaan, I don't even know how any of this has happened. The fire...
As soon as Riddhima had said the word 'fire', there was a knock on the door. Dr Shashank entered the ICU waiting area. Both Armaan and Riddhima stood up.
Riddhima (Furiously): AAP!
The situation of a child dying is very close to my heart, and I always wish that may God stand by all families who have been victims of similar situations and help them through such difficult times.This part meant A LOT to me whilst writing, out of all parts which I have written this has meant the most after part 5.
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Labels: A Burdened Love
Tuesday, February 16
Muskaan’s mom = MM Muskaan’s dad = MD Muskaan’s dadi = DM
MM – ji sunte ho!! (calling her husband) woh ram bhaiyya ki dukaan mein se thodi mithaayi vithaayi leao... shayad rishta pakka ho jaaye toh kya pata
Everyone in their family was extremely happy kyunki aaj ek dum special din tha... aaj unki laadli muskaan ko ek ladke ka parivaar dekhne aane waale hai... lekin muskaan was extremely unhappy...
Mus – (dialing a number) rahul please pick up... (but no one picked up) yeh rahul bhi na.. dus baar phone karchuki hu... ek toh mujhe ladke waale dekhne aarahe hai aur yeh hai ki mera phone bhi pick up nahi kar raha...
Now as mentioned earlier, it was rahul’s family that was coming to see muskaan... but our mischievous rahul felt that it was not needed for him to tell muskaan.. he wanted to surprise her... more like shock her =P that was why he was ignoring all of muskaan’s calls
Mus – door khulla hai.. aa jaao
MM – beti.. yeh kya hai... abhi tak tayaar nahi hui?? (giving her the suit that she was gonna wear)
Mus – maa... mujhe yeh shaadi nahi karni!! (throwing the suit on the bed)
MM – muskaan! Mujhe teri kuchh baat nahi sunni... agar tumhe meri aur tumhaare papa ke liye thodi bhi izzat hai to tum yeh shaadi se mana nahi karogi!
Mus – lekin maa.. main kissi se.. (she was about to say pyaar but she was interuppted)
MM – muskaan... maine aur tumhaare papa ne unhe vachan diya hai ki humaari beti unki hi bahu banegi.. agar meri nahi toh sahi lekin apne papa ke baare main toh soch.. tu jaanti hai ki tumhaari shaadi uss ladke se karwaana unka kitna bada sapna tha.. aaj teri marzi hai… jo karna hai karle.. lekin yaad rakh, yeh shaadi se jo tune inkaar kiya toh tere papa ka toh pata nahi lekin main tujhse baat karna chod dungi (saying this she left)
Muskaan’s eyes were tearing up…. She wiped her tears and tried to stop crying and wear the dress.. but she was unable to stop crying... only then her dadi came
MD – dekh muski, mujhe maloom hai ki tujhe bahot bhura lag raha hoga
(yes guys.. muskaan’s dadi knew about muskaan loving someone)
MD – lekin muski tere paas itne raaste nahi hai lene ke liye.. tujhe pata hai, mere zamaane main main bhi kissi se bahot pyaar karti thi, lekin mere mata pita ne mujhe kissi aur se shaadi karadi mujhse puchhe bina... tujhe main ek baat hi keh sakti hu.. saccha pyaar ka matlab haasil karneka nahi hota beti...
Muskaan’s dadi left.. leaving muskaan in her own thoughts... on own side was her love.. on the other was her family.. she loved rahul more than anything.. but she also loved her family to the core.. she was frustrated by the decision she had to make.. but then her dadi’s words rang in her mind...
MD - saccha pyaar ka matlab haasil karneka nahi hota
Muskaan had made up her mind.... she was going to marry the boy of her parent’s choice but her heart will always be rahul’s... she hoped with all her heart that rahul could understand muskaan’s situation...
Abhi shook his head trying to get the flour off of him and saw nikki with the rolling pin in her hand... staring at him... abhi realized what she was about to do and started backing off... before abhi could run away... nikki had taken quick steps towards abhi but because the flour was on the floor making it slippery.. she slipped and abhi caught her just in time by her waist... he held her.... but then his foot slipped in the flour.. making nikki fall.. nd abhi.. on top of her..
They were mesmerized with each other’s eyes... while nikki tried to look away, (she couldn’t) abhi didn’t mind their closeness... nikki closed her eyes as she felt abhi’s hot breath on her neck, gently giving her the shivers... they were like that until they heard thunder outside.. they both realized the closeness and abhi tried to get up but slipped again and fell on top... nikki wanted the moment to last, but with great difficulty, she got hold of her imaginations that were truly going wild
Nik – abhi get up! (first she said softly..)
Nikki said it softly, expecting him to listen and to get up, but when abhi didn’t.. she said it louder
Nik – ABHI!! Get upp!!
Abhi also had to try hard to control his thoughts.. and then he got up.. both of them were all white... as soon as abhi saw nikki.. he started laughing.. and the same was with nikki.. she was laughing at abhi..
Abh – nikki.. i swear.. yu look soo funny right now!!
Nik – abhi.. tum bhi kuchh kam nahi ho...
They both continued laughing until quite a while, by the time they had stopped laughing, their stomachs were paining quite a lot from all the laughter... lol (always happens to me =P)
Abh – okay nikki.. enough now.. we both have to go wash up before anyone sees us
Nik – i know! We both should go
Abhi knew nikki only meant that they both should go take a bath, but he felt like teasing and embarrassing her...
Abh – together?
Nik – ha.. (she wasn’t thinking “wrong” unlike our abhi.. lol)
Abh – tumhe sharam nahi aayegi?
Nik – isme sharmaane waa... (her eyes widened as she realized what she had implied) noo! I mean.. woh.. (she started looking around and was trying to find an excuse to leave)
Abhi was still looking at nikki with passion in his eyes...
Nik – woh.. i have to go... (pointing to the front door) i have to get my clothes..
Abhi went extremely close to her.. their faces were about an inch away from each other
Abh – (he looked as if he was in a romantic mood... but he wasn’t.. =P) kapde waha se laaogi?
Saying that.. abhi burst out laughing seeing the embarrassed look on nikki’s face.. nikki had had enough.. she hurried back in her room to wash up.. abhi also went in his room...
Canada – Night Club
Ridz was about to say something when she saw that behind armaan.. a few people were about to break into a fight.. she tried pulling armaan away.. but armaan wasn’t budging.. he had his own reason... he still had to pay the bill so he couldn’t just leave... by the time he had finished paying, the people had already started fighting and armaan had noticed it.. ridz tried to stop him..
Rid – armaan.. chalo yaha se!! (she pulled armaan’s hand)
Arm – riddhima lekin we can’t just leave...
There were two absolutely drunk people who were hurting another poor man who had just accidentally spilled the drunk man’s drink.. one of the drunk guys was just watching the other one beat the guy up...
Drunk guy who is beating the innocent guy – D1
Other drunk guy – D2
Innocent guy – G
D1 – what the hell did you think? Yu think imma let yu go?? No way fool (he said while grabbing him in a headlock and punching G’s face)
G – let me go!! I said i’ll payy.. i’ll even buy yu aa (he was interrupted by a hard punch given by D1)
Rid – armaan.. just call the police or something... but yu are not going to get involved
Arm – riddhima.. (ridz could sense that armaan was going to get involved as he referred to her as riddhima instead of the usual basket)
Rid – no armaan.. (she whispered)
Arm – riddhima.. i have to... (saying this.. he went towards the fight)
Rid – in her head: why does he not understand that I am now a part of his life???
Arm – excuse me.. yu need to stop hurting this man.. he has done nothing wrong.. (speaking to D1)
D1 – oh yes mr.harper.. (for those who don’t know.. i am referring to Stephen harper.. canada’s prime minister) i will do whatever you want.. (he said while letting go of the headlock)
D2 – i think this dude wants to get some of yu.. Charlie... (D1)
D1 – its on.... my friend (he put a hand on armaan’s shoulder)
Armaan shrugged off the man’s hand from his shoulder and gave him a deadly look while the man just smirked...
Arm – it is better if we do not get into a fight.. (armaan knew that ridz would never want him to get involved in a fight which is why he tried to avoid having a fight)
D1 – yu scared eh?
Arm – not in a million years dude...
Charlie took an attempt in punching armaan.. armaan dodged the punch and returned it with a punch of his own right in charlie’s stomach...
*IMP* - someone has called the police.. it’ll just take a few minutes to arrive =)
Charlie was furious.. he made a fist with his hand and punched armaan right in the side where it hrut real bad...
*FROZEN MOMENT* (frozen moment = describing the emotions on each character’s face)
Armaan – scrunched up with pain : pain wasn’t severe but remember... armaan wasn’t used to getting punched (he is not a boxer in my ff)
Riddhima – shocked... with horror on her face..
Charlie – smiling evilly
D2 – laughing...
End of *FROZEN MOMENT*
Rid – armaaaaan!! (she screamed..)
Charlie, D2 and armaan’s faces all turned to riddhima...
Arm – riddhima.. go away from here..
But before she could get the chance to leave.. D2 had crept up behind her and grabbed her hand...
D2 – you do anything... i will f***ing kill this girl... yu got it?
D1 – thats a good boy..
Armaan and ridz both stared at each other.. the fear of separation clung in their minds.. Charlie took advantage of armaan’s disadvantage and punched armaan right in the cheekbone... armaan was now in sheer pain... people were afraid to help armaan... he was lying on the ground.. but Charlie was merciless.. he went towards armaan and kicked him hard in the stomach...
D1 - thats what yu get for messin wid me dude... (wid attitude)
The faint sound of sirens were heard...
D1 – Everyone thats here.. (he said somewhat viciously if yu can imagine..) If yu say even one word about us to the authorities.. yu cannot even imagine wat we will do to you...
Armaan was lying on the ground with blood surrounding his face... he looked pretty much dead...
D1 nd D2 believed that the people wouldn’t tell.. (they were drunk.. their minds were impaired) but they didn’t trust ridzy..
Charlie ordered D2 to....
Hey Guys... PLZ don't kill me for such a twist in the story.. =P
but i had to include it.... =) for this part's comments.. i want yu guys to put yur guesses.. what will happen to ridzy?
Mandy = I hope i was quick this time =P nd i know i've added a terrible suspense... but i had no choice... hope yu like it
Avinash = i certainly hope that yu found this part as exciting as the precap =) i know there was very little of AR... but still =P enjoy
Pooja = im glad yu liked the part.. i hope yu like this one too
Punam = thats such a sweet comment!! thx a lott.. i wish i could be the DMG writer... i would have never done wat is happening recently =(
Aditi di = thx a lot for the comment =) im glad yu liked the part
Nikki = hi nikki!! i miss AR a lot too =( nd i know this part wasnt filled with AR... so sry abt that.. but i had too... nd if i do think of keepin AR in canada.. i will surely include clifton hill.. i've never been there myslef though.. =P anyways.. hope yu like my part
Thanks for all your lovely comments guys =)
Labels: Saccha Pyaar
Monday, February 15
@paras, tanyya, rida, shafaq, rocky, pooja, cyutie. Nikki=p, nikka0809, aalima, mandy, saira thnks for commenting on dill mill gayye and part 4 of this ff……m glad u guys liked it.hope u like this part too
So here goes part 5…………
“acha baba bhadakti kyun hai…………friendship day par bata dunga 5 din baad hi toh hai” he said “acha chal hume bhi jaana chahiye” saying this both of them hugged each other and nikki went frm there
After she had gone
“bas basket thode din aur phir tumhe sab pata chal jaayega……and I promise you yeh frndship day tumhare liye sabse yaadgaar din hoga” he said
When he said gone we see someone coming out frm behind the tree and said
Voice: “theek kaha armaan who din tumhari riddhima kabhi nahi bhool paayegi”
Saying this the person smiled evilly
Rahul was as usual dropping riddhima and anjali home. Anji was sitting on the front seat and riddhima was sitting at the back. She was busy thinking about whatever happened in the college. ‘I shdnt have slapped him’ she thought.
“kya soch rahi hai ridzie” anjali asked her
“kuch nahi di…..woh bas aise hi” riddhima said.
“baap re riddhima meine timhara yeh roop pehle kabhi nahi dekha tha……liking slapping some1 tat too infront of the whole college” rahul finally told her wat the entire gang was thinking
“haan ridz mein bhi shocked thi. Meine tujhe pehle kabhi kisipe haath uthate hue nahi dekha” anjali said
“mein kya karti di……who batameeji pe batameeji kiye jaa raha tha. And the way he was staring me……….mujhe bahut gussa aaya. Aur phir mein uski saari baatein kyun sahun. Jitna hum sahenge utna hi who hume pareshan karega” riddhima said losing her temper once again thinking bout tat incidence
“kuch bhi kaho riddhima…….woh humare college ka sabse ghatiya group hai……tumhe aisa nahi karna chahiye tha. They will definitely try to take revenge” rahul said which scared riddhima like nething. Seeing her getting so much scared rahul mentally kicked himself for saying that to her “arre waise tumhare saath toh hum hai hi na toh darne ki kya baat hai………aur waise bhi kuch hua toh armaan hai na. he will take care of it”
Hearing armaan’s name riddhima’s scared expression changed to anger. She again remembered the way he was troubling her in class and she got all the more irritated “us Bandar ka toh naam bhi mat lo mere saamne…….pata nahi khudko kya samajhta hai…..stupid idiot kahinka”
Hearing this rahul and anjali chuckled
“riddhima Bandar? I dnt believe this. Koi ladki actually armaan ko Bandar bol sakti hai. He is the hottest and the most handsome guy in our college riddhima”
Hearing this riddhima made a bad face as if saying ‘tats-so-no-true’
“I agree he is really the most handsome guy I have ever seen….aur ridz tut oh us bichare ke peeche hi pad gayi hai”
Riddhima was all the more irritated on hearing this
“bechara…….diiii aap uski side le rahi ho? Who aur bechara…..haha tats the biggest joke I have ever heard……..no no sorry isse bhi bada joke rahul ne abhi maara tha”
Rahul and anjali gave her a questioning look
“arre tum ne hi toh abhi kaha na ki he is the hottest and the most handsome guy in our college……..woh kya joke se kam tha?”
Anjali and rahul shaked their heads as they knew their was no point arguing. Rahul dropped riddhima and anjali and thn went off at his home.
Riddhima went for jogging and again met armaan there. Bt armaan didn’t notice her. He was busy playing basketball with the kids. Riddhima stopped there for a while and looked at them. She noticed that armaan got along really well with the kids. Probably he wasn’t that bad as she was thinking, she thought and smiled to herself. Armaan finally noticed her and smiled thinking ‘wow yaar subah subah basket ko dekh liye aaj toh din bahut acha jaayega’ bt thn thought of irritating her again
So he shouted “oh god aaj subah subah kis jangli billi ka chehra dekh liya pata nahi aaj kya hoga…….m sure sab kuch gadbad hi hoga” he said all this looking at her
On hearing this riddhima again got irritated and thought ‘ shayad iske bare mein galat hi soch rahi thi’ she was about to leave when armaan shouted
“oh miss jangli billi…….ek match khelogi?”
“no thanks” she said bluntly
“tch tch…….pehle se hi dar gayi kya? Waise tumhari prob nahi hai………armaan se jitna mushkil hi nahi namumkin hai” he said teasing her all the more
“waise yeh galat faimi aapko kab se hai?” she said moving towards him
“galat faimi nahi madam…….yeh sach hai tumhare liye shayad kadwa sach” he replied back
“oh really we will see” saying this both started playing basketball. Bt this time armaan let her win.
“yey…I won”saying this she started jumping with excitement juzz like a kid
Armaan smiled at her innocence……..oh god……he had so missed his basket all those years. She was everything to him. She was his best friend oh sorry the ‘bestest friend’. he was lost in his thoughts about the past bt came out of his thoughts on hearing riddhima’s voice
“so mr. armaan…….saare galat faimi door ho gaya ya aur kuch baaki hai?” she said with attitude raising her right eyebrow
“oh miss jangli billi ek match jitney par itna kush mat ho……….woh toh meine hi tumhe jitne diya warna toh……….bhagwan jaanta hai kya hota tumhara” he said with the same attitude
“oh I see” saying this she juzz smiled and went away
They had attended their classes and once again armaan had managed to make riddhima sit beside him and again irritated her the whole class and inbetween kept staring at her innocent face.
After the classes were over riddhima asked anjali to come with her for a while as she wanted to talk to her bout something important
“ab bol kya kehna tha?” anjali asked
“di who mein……..mein apne purane ghar jaa rahi hoon……shayad armaan wahi mil jaye”
“u mean tumhara waala armaan right”
“aur nahi toh kya di………is armaan ko thodina milne jaaungi……..neways juzz wanted to say tat u go home with rahul……..i will come by my own”
“are u sure…….agar tu chahe toh mein bhi chalti hoon tere saath”
Riddhima thought for a while and then said
“nahi di its ok aap jaaiye mein aa jaungi”
“ok” anjali said and both headed towards their respective destinations, i.e riddhima headed towards her old house and anjali went with rahul
At their old residence………
Riddhima reached armaan’s house and prayed silently hping tat she will find him there. Bt to her disappointment she found the door locked. For a second she thought tat all her fears had come true and tat she had lost her best friend once and for all. But thn it struck her tat their neighbor ‘sangeeta aunty’ must be knwing where he had gone
She rang the bell of ‘sangeeta aunty’s house’
A women in her 50’s opened the door. She saw a young beautiful girl standing infront of her giving her million dollar smile bt try as much as she may she didn’t recognize her.
“kya aunty itni jaldi apni riddhu ko bhul gaye” riddhima said smiling
The women nw remembered who she was and was pleasantly surprised to see her again
“arre riddhu beta tu……baap re kitni badi ho gayi hai. Aur kitni khoobsoorat bhi. Kisiki nazar na lage meri bachi ko” she said putting tat kala tikka on her neck
“kaisi ho aap aunty?”
“theek hoon beta……tu bata tu kaisi hai? Arre andar toh aa” she said inviting her inside
“aunty aaj nahi who actually thode jaldi mein hoon……..acha aunty kya aap bata sakti hai ki armaan aur bi kahan hai? Who actually unka ghar lock hai isiliye…….”
“arre beta unko toh shift hue 5 saal ho gaye….. pata nahi kaha gaye hai………lekin itna jaroor pata hai ki Mumbai mein hi hai”
Riddhima’s face fell on hearing this. She controlled the tears in her eyes which were planning to come out any moment
“theek hai aunty ab mein chalti hoon” she said trying hard to control her tears
“theek hai beta……..apna khayal rakhna aur milti rehna” she said kissing her on her forehead
“ji aunty” she faked a small smile
When riddhima had gone the women called to some1
“jaisa tumne kaha tha mein waise hi kaha hai” she said
“thnk u so much aunty” the other person on the line said
“leking armaan beta tumne mujhe aisa kyun karne ko kaha? Tum bhi toh usse milna chahte ho na?”
“haan aunty par abhi nahi……..acha aunty mein aapko baadme phone karke sab bataunga abhi phone rakhta hoon” saying this he bid her goodbye and kept the phone. Actually armaan had heard anjali and riddhima’s conversation and he knew tat if she went there after seeing the locked door she wud definitely ask their neighbor about his whereabouts and that wud juzz spoil his plan……..so he had called their aunty and explained her wat she should tell riddhima
As soon as he kept the phone he saw riddhima coming out. He cud see tat she was damn upset and wud cry any moment and he was right. As soon as she came out tears started flowing down her cheeks. For a moment he juzz blamed himself for this state of hers. He juzz cudnt see her like tat. He wanted to go there and hug her, wipe her tears and tell her tat he is her armaan bt thn he again stopped himself the moment he saw riddhima wiping her tears and composing herself. He smiled seeing her. He knew wat she was thinking. He knew she was thinking tat he is still in Mumbai and tat she wud find him at any cost
“don’t worry basket………juzz four days to go and aur search is over” he smiled again looking at her and this time flashing his dimples
that’s it guys…..i knw u were expecting friendships day bt for tat u will have to wait for some time. Please comment guys they mean a lot to me
p.s. hey aalima hwz ur brother nw? do keep informing me about his health and dnt wry everything will be fine. Take care
loads of love
Sunday, February 14
SEGMENT 7: Kahin To…
Date: 11th June, 2009
“Adi… Adi, are you there? It’s urgent. Please call back as soon as you’re free.”
The answering machine went off before Aditya could reach the telephone rack. The very next moment he was dialing Apoorva’s number. She picked up at the first ring.
Adi: Kuhu Didi? Kya hua?
Apoorva: Adi… we’ve taken Lovy to the hospital. Tum please jaldi se aa jao.
As Apoorva went silent, a bit of Aditya’s heart was broken off, and he was sure that the rest of her explanation would shatter it into a million little pieces.
Adi: (shouting into the handset) Why? What happened to her? Is Ayu fine? Kuhu Didi… for God’s sake, please tell me!
Apoorva: (very slowly) She has fever…
Apoorva’s frightened voice told him that it was more, much more than she wanted to tell him. Aditya waited for Apoorva to elaborate.
Adi: (urging) Just fever?
Apoorva: It was 106 degrees when we checked.
Apoorva: Haan… aur… doctor keh rahe hain…
Apoorva paused abruptly. Aditya could feel his heart breaking a little more, bit by bit. The pieces fell into his stomach, tossing and turning his insides. All the while, he tried to hide the hurt and the pain he held deep within him. Aditya could only nod and brace himself for the worst possible explanation.
Adi: (asking, trying to keep his composure) Kya keh rahe hain doctor?
Apoorva: (betraying the hint of her cracked voice) Please yahaan aa jao Adi. Please!
Adi: I’ll be there in ten.
Lovy opened her eyes and tried to look beyond the nasal mask. As her eyes grew accustomed to the light, she could see the ventilator machine, the team of doctors huddled in the corner and the nurse bending over her.
Nurse: Doctor… patient ko hosh aa gaya.
Doc: (coming towards them and speaking to the nurse) Remove her from the ventilator and inform the family.
After the nurse had done her bid, another doctor asked.
Doc: How’re you feeling now?
Lovy: (voicing the only thought she had in her mind) Will I die?
The first doctor chose to reply.
Doc: No-no, not at all. You’ll be fine! You’ll be fine!
Lovy: To fir mujhe maar dijiye…
Doc: Aise nahi bolte Miss Sharma… aap bilkul theek ho jayengi.
Lovy: Mujhe theek nahi hona… I want to… I…
She gasped for breath.
Doc: Miss Sharma… aapki family aaj subah se aapke liye bahut pareshaan hai. Humne unhe vaccinate kar diya hai… aap unse milna chaahti hain?
Doc: Good girl. We’ll just send them in. And remember, you are not allowed to talk much.
Mamma kissed Lovy’s forehead. Daddy followed suit. Apoorva just sat down and looked away from Lovy.
Daddy: Ab kaisa hai mera beta?
Lovy tried to force a smile.
Mamma: Ab kabhi aise bimar mat padna… meri to jaan hi nikal gayi thi…
Daddy: (holding Mamma close) Ro mat na… Lovy ko achha nahi lagega… hai na beta?
Lovy: Daddy… aap ek kaam karenge?
Daddy: (ruffling her hair) Haan bilkul… lekin abhi ice-cream nahi milegi… jab theek ho jaogi, tab…
Lovy: (punctuating him) Aap please mujhe maar dijiye…
Daddy took off his hand from Lovy’s hair instantly. Mamma stared at Lovy in shock.
Apoorva: Pagal ho gayi ho kya?
But Lovy had her eyes only for Daddy, who stood white-faced, eyes bearing great pain.
Lovy: Daddy please… aap… aap mujhse bahut pyar karte hain na… to please mujhe…
Apoorva: (trying to prevent Lovy’s voice reaching Daddy’s ears) Shut up! Just shut up!
Lovy: (tears streaming down her eyes) Daddy please! Main… main usey bhool jaungi… please mujhe maar dijiye… please…
Daddy looked at Mamma, then at Apoorva and turned back to look at Lovy, who had again slipped into unconsciousness. They were rushed out by the nurse as the doctors were called in.
“The doctors haven’t given us any hopes, yet.”
Aditya’s heart burst and he could feel it as it decayed slowly inside his chest. He shook his head in disbelief, closing his eyes and hoped that it was all a dream. But when he opened them again, Daddy was still standing there, and Aditya could feel that his own eyes were burning.
She’s only eighteen!!!
Aditya screamed inside his head. He tried to wrap his mind around the thought that he might lose her forever. He would never hear her voice again; he would never see her smiling face again. He would never be able to tell her how much he felt guilty for leaving her, how much he loved her. Aditya knew that without her, there would be no light, nothing in his life for him to look back upon. That was what Lovy had been for him, his light.
He dared to ask the question he didn’t want to know the answer to.
Adi: What do the doctors exactly say?
Apoorva: The doctors aren’t really sure, but they want her under observation for 48 hours. Uske baad… they say, everything would be clear.
Aditya closed his eyes again, squeezing them tight to make the living nightmare disappear. For that instant, he tried to imagine what it would be like without Lovy. He couldn’t picture it; he refused to even see the tiny glimpse of what it could be like. Inside, he felt as though his whole body was burning with anger
His Ayu had been the one good thing in his life which never left him. Not until…
He shook his head, wishing the thought away. Aditya opened his eyes and looked at Apoorva, his eyes pleaded with her to tell him she was lying.
Tell me you’re lying. Please! Even if you’re lying about lying, just tell me that you are, so that this could go away.
Adi: I want to see her…
Mamma: Jab usey hosh aayega, tab mil lena… waise bhi abhi doctor wahin hain…
Adi: (kneeling on the ground before Mamma and taking her hands in his) Aunty Ji… aap bilkul bhi pareshaan mat hoiye… Ayu ko kuch nahi hoga. Please don’t cry…
Mamma: (sounding terrified) Doctor keh rahe hain ki…
Adi: Main unse baat karunga, okay? But, pehle aap khud ko sambhaliye…
Mamma: Adi, wo Lovy… wo bahut…
Adi: She’ll be fine, I promise.
Mamma did not speak another word. She just patted Aditya’s head and nodded.
“I WANT TO SEE HER!! LET ME IN!!!”
A harassed Aditya battered the door, forcing the doctor to come outside. Seeing Aditya, the doctor sent away the nurse. He was the same doctor who had told Lovy that she would be fine and was also the head of the Neurology department.
Doc: (exclaiming) Aditya!
Adi: (surprised for a second on seeing him) Uncle, aap… oh…
Doc: (pulling Aditya’s ear) Tum shor kyun macha rahe the?
Adi: Wo, nurse mujhe andar nahi aane de rahi thi…
Doc: Koi kaam tha mujhse?
Adi: Nahi, Ayu se… wo jo andar patient hai… ussey milna tha.
Doc: You know her?
When Aditya nodded in reply, the doctor ushered him inside.
Aditya stood wide eyed, staring at the motionless form on bed. He couldn't believe it. It was a joke; a sick cruel joke that they were playing on her and he was done with it. He stood there a moment longer and then slowly dragged his feet towards the bed.
Adi: (calling softly) Ayu…
Doc: Wo abhi behosh hai…
Adi: To usey hosh me laiye… aap doctor hain na…
Adi: Please uncle… Ayu ko kuch nahi hona chahiye…
Doc: Wo theek ho jayegi…
Adi: (eyes bloodshot) Promise me.
Doc: Beta tum samajh nahi rahe ho…
Adi: Main sab samajh raha hoon… aap fir se jhooth bol rahe hain…
Doc: Aditya! Listen…
Adi: Aapne kaha tha ki Ma aur Pa theek ho jayenge… dono chale gaye. Aap tab bhi jhooth bol rahe the, aur ab bhi jhooth bol rahe hain. Ayu bhi chali jayegi… aap kuch nahi karte... aap kuch theek nahi karte.
The doctor steered Aditya towards the chair and made him sit down. Aditya sat, fuming. The doctor sat down beside him.
Doc: (pressing Aditya’s shoulder) Alok aur Sangeeta mere bhi dost the… meri family jaise the… main bhi unhe bachana chaahta tha. Lekin jab un dono ko yahaan laya gaya, ussey pehle hi wo…
Adi: I know… I’m sorry.
Doc: (changing the topic) It is a severe case of bacterial meningitis. Miss Sharma has to be put on ventilator to assist with breathing while she rests. So far, she hasn’t shown any improvement. And, I think… she’s somewhat mentally depressed too.
Aditya, who had been gaping at the doctor while he told about meningitis, lowered his gaze at his last sentence.
Doc: Maine inki family se baat ki hai… aur unse kuch bhi jhooth nahi bola.
Adi: Ayu theek ho jayegi…
Doc: Well, we can’t be sure about…
Adi: Main poochh nahi raha hoon, bata raha hoon.
Finally, the doctor asked what he had wanted to ask the very first moment he saw Aditya today.
Doc: How do you know her?
Adi: Aapko yaad nahi? Ayu, Uncle Ji, Aunty Ji, Kuhu Didi… they’re my family.
Doc: (staring at Lovy, trying to recall) She’s Ayu? Ayu?? Tumhari…
He stopped suddenly. The doctor had rushed forwards. Lovy had opened her eyes. After removing the ventilator and checking her pulse, the doctor allowed Aditya to meet Lovy.
Adi: (sitting on the floor near Lovy’s head) Ayu…
Adi: (inserting his fingers in Lovy’s hair) Kaisi ho Baby?
Ayu: (a tear rolling sideways, down her cheek) Mujhse koi pyar nahi karta, Adi…
Adi: (wiping the tear) Aise kyun bol rahi ho? Sab tumse pyar karte hain Baby…
Ayu: Tum bhi?
Aditya was conscious of the fact that the doctor was hearing over them.
Adi: Of course… sab…
Ayu: To fir tum… tum mujhe maar do…
Adi: (thinking he had heard wrongly) Kya karun?
Ayu: (holding Aditya’s T-shirt with her hand) Mujhe maar do, please…
Adi: Ayu, tum kya…
Ayu: Please Adi! Tum mujhse pyar karte ho na… please mujhe maar do. I promise main tumhe bhool jaungi. Adi… tum mujhe please…
Lovy burst into tears. Still holding Aditya’s T-shirt, she looked into his eyes imploringly, pleadingly. Aditya had got to the reason behind Lovy’s behaviour in no time. Unconcerned about the fact that the doctor was eyeing both of them too closely, Aditya moved forwards and kissed Lovy’s forehead.
Adi: Tumhe marne ki zaroorat nahi hai… main apni kasam waapas leta hoon. I’m sorry.
She started but stopped immediately, seeing Aditya’s face. He seemed too angry for words.
Adi: Just shut up! Tumne socha bhi kaise ki main tumhe maarne ke baare me… ab mujhse kabhi baat karne ki koshish mat karna.
Ayu: (crying bitterly) Nahi karungi… main to waise bhi marne waali hoon…
Adi: Tumhe agar thappad khaane hain to seedhe-seedhe bol do…
When Lovy did not retort, Aditya chose to look at her. She was still crying. Aditya hugged her tightly, keeping his head on her chest, his arms around Lovy, in a determined grip.
Adi: (his words breaking) Tumhe kuch nahi hoga Ayu… kuch nahi…
Ayu: Adi… please…
She couldn’t see Aditya’s face but she knew why he was trying to hide it. She couldn’t see Aditya’s tears but she could feel them in her heart. Aditya straightened. He reached his hand up to her face and stroked her tear-stained cheeks, wiping the tears with his thumb. He lowered his head to hers, with his forehead touching the top of her head. He had never wanted to be this close to her before.
Adi: You’re not going to die! You only have a little fever and a head ache.
Aditya was filled with worry and anger. He wouldn't let Lovy tell herself that she was going to die. Aditya kept staring at her face. This porcelain face, that seemed, if anyone had tried to hit it, would break into a million pieces. Her perfect lips curved into a smile, but her porcelain white cheeks showed no hint of colour to support the gesture. Lovy closed her eyes.
Adi: Ayu! Kya hua?
Lovy opened them again, knowing Aditya was extremely worried for her.
Ayu: I’ll miss you.
Adi: Shut up! Stop talking like that!
Ayu: I meant when you leave the hospital, gadhe!
Ayu: (trying to reassure Aditya) I’m okay… I will be okay…
Adi: I know…
Lovy could not help but just smile at him and closed her eyes once more.
Ayu: (opening her eyes) Hmm?
Adi: I love you…
As Aditya bent to kiss Lovy’s forehead for the third time, Lovy closed her eyes again.
Lovy did not open her eyes.
Adi: (a little more urgently) Ayu!!
When Lovy still didn’t respond, Aditya shook her. No reply. He shook her hard.
Adi: Ayu! Open your eyes!! Ayu!!!
The doctor stopped Aditya from shaking Lovy out of her bed.
Doc: She’s unconscious again.
Adi: Why? Abhi to theek thi.
Doc: It happens. Tum bahar jao.
Adi: Nahi, main yahin rahunga… please!
Doc: Aditya, maine kaha na… bahar jao…
Aditya knew it was no use arguing with a doctor.
Adi: (before leaving) Ayu… wo… usey kuch nahi hona chahiye. Main ab aur kisi ko nahi khona chaahta. Ayu ko bilkul nahi.
Aditya stepped out and banged the door behind him.
“I want you to come with me.”
Aditya did not question. He simply put his steps behind her and followed Apoorva. Reaching an isolated corridor, Apoorva turned around and started.
Apoorva: I know ye sun ke tumhe shock lagega, but… I think Lovy is in love with you.
Adi: (with an impassive face) I know.
Apoorva: (close enough to a shout) What?
Adi: I’m sure Ayu loves me.
Apoorva: I’m not joking.
Adi: Nor am I.
Apoorva: To fir… fir… tum… tum Bangalore nahi ja rahe na?
Adi: No, I’m going.
Apoorva: Are you out of your mind or what? Tum ja kaise sakte ho?
Aditya did not answer; neither did he look up at Apoorva.
Apoorva: Tumhari wajah se Lovy aaj is condition me hai. You can’t leave her!
Aditya shook his face.
Apoorva: Speak up! Answer me! Tum Lovy ke saath itna ganda mazaak karke nahi ja sakte.
Adi: Mera pyar mazaak nahi hai…
Apoorva: To fir prove karo. Mat jao!
Adi: Mera jaana zaroori hai…
Apoorva: Chahe uski wajah se Lovy mar hi kyun na jaaye?
Aditya’s head jerked up. What all was not there in those chocolate brown eyes.
Apoorva: (adding on, knowing Aditya was getting unsettled) Maine uski aankhein dekhi hain… wo tumse bahut pyar karne lagi hai. Aaj bhi tumhe bhoolne ke liye keh rahi thi ki… wo mar jayegi Adi… tumhare bina wo mar jayegi.
Adi: Koi kisi ke bina nahi marta Kuhu Didi. Mujhe dekhiye… main aaj bhi zinda hoon, aur aagey bhi akele zinda rehne ka hausla rakhta hoon.
Apoorva: But Lovy is not like you. She’s…
Aditya: Jitna weak aap Ayu ko samajh rahi hain, utni weak wo hai nahi. Do you remember, she was the one who encouraged me to live after Ma and Pa…
Apoorva: (in a milder tone) That’s different Adi. You both had each other then. But aaj agar tum chale jaate ho, to Lovy… jaisa aaj hua waisa aagey bhi ho sakta hai.
Adi: Kuhu Didi… I assure you, mere zinda rehte Ayu nahi mar sakti.
Apoorva: (irritated) To kya dono saath me maroge? Tum apni Ayu ke bina reh sakte ho? Nahi na? To fir tum kyun usey chhod kar…
Adi: Mujhe Di-Jeej ke pass jaana hoga. Isey chahe aap meri galti samjhein, chahe majboori. But, main unhe mana nahi kar sakta.
Apoorva: Par kyun?
Adi: (roaring, not caring that he was talking to a person whom he called Di) Kyunki wo meri Di hain! Ma-Pa ke baad she’s my only family! Di aur Jeej chaahte to will ke paison se apna, Ansh ka future secure kar sakte the, but unhone apne baare me nahi socha, will ke paison ki taraf dekha tak nahi. Bas meri studies, meri well-being, sirf aur sirf mere liye sochte rahe. Maine unse ek baar kaha to unhone wahaan ke top college me mera admission kara diya. Kyun? Just because they love me, care for me. Aap kya chaahti hain? Ab, jab mera time aaya hai kuch karne ka, to main unse ye keh doon ki main unke sapne poore nahi kar sakta kyun ki maine apne liye koi aur hi khwaab dekha hai jisme unki, unke armaanon ki koi jagah nahi hai?
Apoorva: Uncle-Aunty ke jaane ke baad, tumhe aisa kyun lagta hai ki koi tumhare liye kuch karta hai to wo tum par ehsaan karta hai? She’s your sister, right? Unhone jo kiya, wo apna farz samajh ke kiya. Aur maine ye kabhi nahi kaha ki tum unke against jao. Hum log to tumhare kuch nahi lagte…
Adi: (starting) Mera wo matlab…
Apoorva: (continuing) Lekin wo to tumhari Di hain na? Tumhe sabse achhe se samjhengi. Tum unse ek baar baat bhi nahi kar sakte? Pyar aur farz me se kisi ek ko chunna zaroori nahi hai… dono saath me bhi nibhaaye ja sakte hain.
He wasn’t sure at all. Whatever Apoorva had said seemed to him some dialogues from Shahrukh’s movies. And he had realized that reality was much different.
Nothing turns good in the end, nothing!
Apoorva: Haan. Tum Di-Jiju ke pass chale jaana. Unke arm…
Adi: (supplying) Armaan?
Apoorva: Shut up! Unke sapne poore karna… aur fir waapas aa kar…
Adi: Aur agar main waapas nahi aaya to?
Apoorva: Tum apni Ayu ke liye waapas zaroor aaoge. After all, you love her, don’t you? Tum bas abhi usey yakeen dila do ki tum waapas…
Adi: Are you sure? Agar main Ayu se itna hi pyar karta, to usey chhod kar jaata hi kyun?
Apoorva: (taken aback) What do you mean? I know you love her…
Adi: I mean that I can’t give Ayu any false hopes. Mujhe nahi pata ki main waapas aaunga ya nahi. Aur main nahi chaahta ki Ayu mera intzaar kare…
Apoorva: Ye us ghatiya story ka dialogue hai na? Lovy ne ye part padhaya tha…
Adi: (revolted) MKRM ghatiya story nahi hai. Aur mujhe ab aur koi discussion nahi karna.
Apoorva: (not able to control herself) Tum Di se zyada pyar karte ho ya Lovy se?
Adi: Chahe jissey bhi zyada pyar karun, lekin mera decision change nahi hoga.
Apoorva: Aur Lovy? Uske baare me nahi sochoge?
Adi: Ayu mujhe bahut achhe se jaanti hai. I know ye sunke aapko zaroor shock lagega, but Ayu ne mujhe jaane se kabhi nahi roka.
Aditya went away, leaving Apoorva speechless.
Date: 12th June, 2009
The night was muted. Every moment of restored tranquility bore false witness against the chaos of the recent past. But she was dead lying across from him with that stupid expression painted across a face devoid of feeling.
What was left when life left?
The surprise lacked depth; the hollow eyes downplayed the arched eyebrows. It was like staring at purgatory for the astonished, an eternal surprise waiting helplessly for an understanding that could never grace the mind. Aditya stared blankly at a beautiful face with gentle endearing black eyes that drank in their surroundings, losing hope.
What had they talked about during that hour in the hospital, before his Ayu left him? Aditya’s eyes welled with tears as he tried desperately to remember her last words. Everything had happened so quickly; it felt like so long ago. She couldn’t leave him. He won’t let her.
I WON’T LET YOU!
Aditya woke up, shaking with fear and unshed tears. The morning sun was pure bliss - simple, calm, content. But Aditya wasn’t calm enough. A sharp, aching pain stabbed at his side. Couldn’t anything go right? Everyone he had ever loved had left him. It left him feeling alone, and tired. The stabbing pain in his side stopped, and the world swam into view again, bright in the morning light.
Aditya picked up his mobile from the bedside table and started dialing. No answer. He dialed again. No one picked up. Furiously, he dialed for the third time and the call was received at the very first ring.
Adi: Hello! Di…?
Akanksha: (yawning) Haan Adi… itni subah kaise phone kiya?
Adi: Di…wo, actually…
He didn’t know how to go on. How would Akanksha react to what he was going to tell her?
Akanksha: (sounding worried) Kya hua Adi? Sab theek to hai? Tumhari tabiyat…
Adi: Main… Ayu… wo…
Akanksha: Lovy? Kya hua usey?
Adi: Wo hospital me hai.
Aditya told Akanksha about Lovy’s health status in brief.
Akanksha: Oh my God! Ye sab aise, achanaq… wo theek ho jayegi na?
Adi: Hmm… wo… Ayu… main…
Akanksha: Mujhe pata hai bachcha… tum wahaan uske pass rehna chahte ho. Rehna bhi chahiye. Hum log abhi wahaan nahi aa sakte, but tumhe…
Adi: Main Sunday tak pahunch jaunga…
Adi: Matlab… main aaj yahaan se…
Akanksha: No way! Adi aisa karo, tum ticket cancel karwa do… thode din wahin ruko. Wahaan sab ko tumhari zaroorat hai. I can’t even imagine Sharma uncle aur aunty ki condition is samay kya hogi. You have to be with them.
Adi: (steadying his heart) Nahi… I’m coming… mujhe bas ye poochhna tha ki aap logon ke liye yahaan se kya laun?
There was a pause after that.
Akanksha: Bas tum aa jao. Aur Lovy se bolna apna khayal rakhe. Tum wahaan ruk jaate to…
Adi: Bye Di.
He ended the call. Aditya did not want to waver from his decision at any cost now. He knew if for even once he chose to think about the consequences, he would never be able to go, away from them all, away from Lovy, away from his light.
An unearthly chill fell upon the surroundings as he entered. All voices hushed and movement paused, as if time itself did not dare continue its incessant journey in the presence of such a creature. Aditya pulled his suitcase along with him and reached the couple sitting on the hospital bench. Their gaze darted towards the luggage and both stood up simultaneously. Aditya greeted them.
Mamma: Khush raho! Mujhe to laga tha tum chale gaye hoge…
Daddy: Tumhari train to 8:50 ki thi na?
Adi: Train late hai… 10:15 departure time hai…
Daddy: (checking the time) It’s already 9 o’clock beta. Aur station pahunchne me kum se kum 45 minutes to lagenge. Yahaan bekaar me aa gaye… late ho jaoge.
Adi: Bekaar me nahi… aap logon se milne aaya tha… fir pata nahi kab aa paun.
Saying so, he moved forwards and hugged Mamma. She hugged him back and tears started flowing on both sides.
Mamma: Mera bachcha… mujhe bhool to nahi jaoge na?
Adi: Ma ko bhi kabhi koi bhoolta hai? Aap log to meri family hain… aapko bhool kar kahaan jaunga?
Mamma: Phone karte rehna… tumhare bina sab…
Adi: (separating himself and wiping Mamma’s tears) Shhh… rona nahi chahiye. Infact, aapko to khush hona chahiye… ab aapki betiyon ke alaawa aur koi aapko pareshaan nahi karega.
Mamma: (wiping Aditya’s tears) Baat to sahi hai… chhutti milegi.
Adi: (looking over at Daddy) Dekha Uncle Ji… maine to aise hi keh diya tha khush hone ke liye… ye to sach me khush ho rahi hain…
Daddy: (hitting Aditya’s head gently) Haan, dekh liya…
Adi: Of course, aapne to dekha hi hoga… Aunty Ji ke alaawa koi dikhta kahaan hai aapko.
Daddy: Jab tumhari shaadi hogi, tab main bhi yahi poochhunga, fir bataana…
He too hugged Aditya.
Daddy: Kabhi bhi… agar zaroorat ho… to yaad rakhna… we’re all still there for you, always.
Adi: Kuhu Didi kahaan hain?
Daddy: Lovy ke pass…
Adi: Main mil loon?
Daddy smiled and nodded.
Before he could even open the door and enter, Apoorva’s sharp voice reached Aditya’s ears.
Apoorva: Di ko tum call kar rahi ho ya main karun?
Lovy: Tumhe kuch karne ki zaroorat nahi hai…
Apoorva: Tumhe bhi chup rehne ki zaroorat nahi hai… roko Adi ko…
Lovy: Jab mujhe uske jaane se koi problem nahi hai, to tum kyun itna pareshaan ho rahi ho?
Apoorva: Ye to dikh hi raha hai ki tumhe koi problem nahi hai. Isiliye to yahaan padi ho… sab ko pareshaan kar rakha hai… Mamma, Daddy… aur khud bhi…
Aditya could not wait a second longer. There wasn’t enough time. He knocked at the door and called.
Adi: Main aa jaun?
Apoorva’s voice stopped abruptly. She stood up and went towards the door excitedly.
Apoorva: (flinging open the door) Tum gaye nahi? I knew tum…
Adi: Bas ja hi raha tha… train late hai.
Apoorva: (angrily) To fir jao. Yahaan kyun aaye? Kiske liye?
Lovy: KuDi… bas karo ab.
Apoorva tried to calm down, noting Lovy’s frustrated voice and Aditya’s guilty face.
Apoorva: Waapas kab aaoge?
Adi: Agar aap log bulayenge, to Ayu ki shaadi par zaroor aaunga.
Apoorva: Kyun? Main tumhari dushman hoon kya?
Adi: (smiling) Nahi… bilkul nahi. Aapki shaadi par bhi aaunga.
Adi: Aap Ayu se kahiyega apna khayal rakhne ke liye…
Lovy looked up.
Apoorva: (asking just what Lovy wanted to ask) Tum khud nahi keh sakte?
Adi: Keh sakta hoon, but aap hi hume privacy nahi de rahi…
Apoorva went out of the room, stamping her feet. Silence elapsed for a moment, before Lovy’s conscious was broken as Aditya settled himself onto the bed beside her.
Adi: Bye Ayu…
Ayu: Tum waapas kab aaoge?
Adi: (looking away from her) Kabhi nahi…
Ayu: Meri shaadi par bhi nahi?
Aditya was forced to look at her. She wasn’t crying, not yet.
Adi: Tumhari shaadi par shaayad nahi aa paunga…
Adi: (dejectedly) Apne khwaab ko kisi aur ka khwaab bante hue kaise dekhunga?
Ayu: Apna khwaab tootte hue dekh sakte ho?
Aditya stared at Lovy.
Ayu: Mujhe call karoge?
Aditya’s head jerked into an instant nod. But when Lovy kept glaring at him, he spoke.
Ayu: Blog visit karoge?
Ayu: Online aaoge?
Ayu: Mere mails ka reply karoge?
Ayu: To fir MKRM kaise padhoge?
Seeing Aditya caught off-guard, Lovy moved on.
Ayu: Mujhe miss karoge?
Ayu: Do you love me?
Adi: (after a single second’s hesitation) Nahi…
Ayu: But I do.
Adi: Isiliye to maine tumse kaha tha… mujhe bhool jaana.
Ayu: Is that your answer to everything?
She asked with a shadow of her former self.
Adi: (with a small smile) Some things… not everything.
They lapsed into a gentle, comfortable silence. Lovy was being unusually tough today. There wasn’t a tear in her eyes. Aditya’s heart wailed.
Just stop me once! Just once! Don’t let me go!
Ayu: (as if she had heard his heart’s lament) Agar main tumhe rokungi to tum ruk jaoge?
Aditya gazed into her eyes. She seemed unable to stop herself from stopping him.
Lovy’s eyes widened, and the tears that had been held back flowed slowly down her beautiful face.
Ayu: Bye Adi…
Aditya wasn’t shocked. Lovy could have stopped him, but she didn’t. He knew she wouldn’t. And the effect of this action was taking a toll on her. Lovy had, at last, succumbed to her emotions. Loosely wrapping her arms around him, Lovy continued to cry the bottomless pit of tears that she had been waiting for. Aditya patted her back soothingly, his own throat choked at hearing her anguish. Slowly, her wails subsided, and turned into quiet sniffs. She raised her head, and a rush of air cooled the patch of skin on Aditya’s shoulder that had been wet through his shirt by her tears.
Adi: I’m sorry Ayu… I’m really sorry.
Ayu: I’m sorry too.
Adi: I love you…
Lovy did not answer. She didn’t want to. She just watched him as Aditya gently kissed her right cheek, then her left one. She closed her eyes, savouring the moment, knowing that it would be gone too soon for her liking. He then, slowly, kissed the tip of her nose, and eyed her deep black orbs, to find them concealed behind her eyelids.
Adi: (murmuring) Ayu…
Lovy opened her eyes. Aditya lowered his face and Lovy turned her head away from him before the lips could meet. Aditya knew this behaviour. He tried to turn her towards himself but Lovy did not relent.
Ayu: Bye Adi… best of luck + all the best for your life.
Aditya knew there was nothing more to be done between him and her. It was the end of it all and he had no one to blame but himself.
Adi: (standing up) Mujhe bhool jaana Ayu…
Ayu: Just go, Adi! Go!
Lovy closed her eyes and rested her head against the wall. Aditya’s sweaty palm barely maintained a grip on the suitcase. The tingling sensation of primal fear melted with the dread of a life left to live alone. Few days ago, the world had been different. He started walking away.
Adi: (as he reached the door) Rona mat Ayu… please… kabhi mat rona…
When he got no answer, Aditya opened the door and walked out. Lovy closed her eyes even more tightly. The pain in her head was nothing compared to the pain in her heart. She wanted to call out. She wanted to stop him. She wanted to see him, just one more time.
Aditya’s head peeped in as soon as Lovy opened her eyes. She buried her face into a pillow and then started to cry. At first she wanted to stop crying but then after a while she could think of nothing better to do. He pulled back behind the door. His heart pounding in his chest, he closed his eyes like a disobedient child, of the mindset that if he couldn't see the threat, they couldn't see him either. His lips twittered as he pleaded, unspoken.
Please just stop crying. I'll leave. I promise.
When he couldn’t control any longer, Aditya ran inside the room. Lovy flung her arms around him. Aditya’s tears came out of their own accord. There was no stopping. Lovy kissed his forehead and before Aditya could recover from it, he felt her lips meet his.
They didn’t move, they didn’t breathe. They just sat there, their lips pressed together. Aditya could feel the electricity that ran through Lovy, connect with his and savoured the way it mixed. The perfect parody of an unrequited recipe of love and desire. Someone knocked at the door. It was already 9:30.
He shouldn’t be here. He couldn’t be here.
Apoorva: Adi! Daddy wait kar rahe hain.
Aditya wanted to answer “I’m coming” but no voice came out from his throat. He wanted to tell Lovy that he loved her, that he would miss her, but still there was no sound. Lovy separated herself from Aditya and resting her head against the wall, she again closed her eyes. Those eyes did not reopen until Aditya had gone – taking with himself, all the brightness of her life.
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